reply to post by capgrup
All I ask is for you to prove to me that god exists in an intelligent thought out case without reverting to the term "faith". Not exactly an
easy thing to do.
You are exactly right! But it is too abstract to put into words in the way you want.
I have a relationship with God that goes beyond faith. Faith is too intangible. All I can tell you is that there can be situations where there can be
no doubt in your mind that there is a presence that has intervened in your life.
An example:
I reached a helpless, demoralized state at one point in my life. I decided to kill myself. I knew that it was wrong as I would be leaving three
children. But I felt that my life was beyond salvaging, and that they would be better off without me anyway.
I had a relationship of sorts with God but felt too insignificant and too wicked. So I had not prayed to him in years. As I was sobbing driving down a
road, deciding how to do the deed, I sobbingly asked God to let me go. Let me die. I felt at the time that it was a great sin.
There was a beautiful lake (Lake Washington in Seattle). I was driving down this beautiful boulevard and decided to pull into a parking spot to walk
out to the pier. It was very quiet and no-one was around.
I was sitting on this bench on the pier looking over the water, deciding how to end my life. When up walked a stranger, one who I had never seen
before. He asked me if I owned the bench, laughingly. I thought; "Oh great, now this guy is going to harass me, maybe he will kill me and I will be
off the hook!"
He said to me, "You don't want to live - do you? ...Well, God wants you to live, he does not want you to die." He said, "Look at the beauty here,
he cares for that mother duck as he cares for the chicks (it was like out of a corny Hollywood movie with a mother and her chicks going by at that
moment on the lake).
He talked to me for about 20 minutes, got me laughing, and then left, never to see him again. I never wanted to take my life again after this
incident. I then had many other incidents after this one that kept building my confidence regarding the existence of a God.
It is easy to be skeptical, to rationalize this situation. But I want to add; it is not just the fact that a strange young man approached me, but the
circumstances had the strangest feeling associated with it. I had just told God and begged him to let me go, and let me take my will, and my own life.
Just minutes before! I must have been on the pier for no more than 10 minutes. It wasn't like I was sitting there sobbing. I had reached a calm state
with a calm demeanor when he approached!
One of my posts earlier in this thread, I discussed what spiritual means to me (someone asked me to define it). This example fits aspects of what I
was trying to say. There is a tremendous awareness that is attached to a divine experience. Not just the experience itself, although that in itself
can be great. But the
feeling that goes along with it, can be extraordinary.
I have had many incidents that would raise ones brows, and there have been eye witnesses, to some of them.