posted on Nov, 14 2011 @ 05:39 PM
Hmm, Pellian still getting replies, i thought this was our thread now Lucid? lol.
Ermmmmmm, ok, Lucy I thought we were friends? I was tipsy that night but it is their attitude towards me that night and the build up that made me
flip. I sensed their negativity and then one day boom, the fact that they were laughing at me being booted proves that.
As for Aga, I duno, he said hil chat, also I dont always get my U2us so its hard to tell and if I get them stupid site doesnt show me new messages,
like it forgot bout them, lol.
Regarding the fears, I just got one fear mainly, dying a painful death, I want a gun by my side knowing if anything were to happen I've got a button
I can press and boom Im outa here. That would be my nirvana rite now, having a gat, this life is hard, our bodies are a load of crap and this shell
isnt me and I hate it! It lets me down, Id rather just be a ghost, no worries, lol. So many impure thoughts and impure people around, its hard to find
decent real people in this life, hard to know who to trust for sure. I couldnt trust my own family who stabbed me in the back at one point and I know
theyll do it again if given half a chance. But honestly thats my pain, my fears, my worries that I might have to die painfully and thats the reason im
here now. Id just keep the gun with me and if anythign kicked off, boom, im outa here, thats fearlessness, thats heaven, thats living!