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Originally posted by abeverage
Of course they also say this is an early symptom of schizophrenia, I just happend to think it is depression caused by a dismal state of the world. And I think a lot of people don't want to face it because of denial.
That said, planting a Garden and being with Family and friends helped me, might help you too I hope.
Originally posted by dr treg
gratitude+acceptance+trust+honesty = connectivity
self-pity+resentment+fear+dishonesty = disconnectivity
Originally posted by canadiansenior70
Like where do I belong? Why does it feel that I might even be invisible?
Originally posted by daynight42
Today, driving around, I felt that life has taken on such a surreal nature to me. It's as if I am wandering around aimlessly, and that nothing matters. Things happen, but they happen just to happen. I look around me, and it's as if I'm part of a dream that is very life like but that I cannot wake up from. I look around me at people just going about their lives, and I wonder how they do it. They don't seem the least bit bothered by what is going on in the world. It's really as if I'm almost living a completely different life than they are, in another world. Yet, I see them, and they see me. I feel like a foreigner even though I can remember being here for as long as I can remember. This existence has taken an artificial quality. It's like nothing really matters to me, because nothing (important) seems to matter to anyone else, except trivial crap. I feel like I'm paralyzed and can't move, but the people around me are moving and carrying on; they notice me, but nobody notices that I'm not moving. It is a very odd feeling. It's like I do not belong here.
It reminds me of nihilism of some kind. The things that are so important to me and to our advancement as a species are ignored by most people. It's like I realize this now, and I have given up on the world around me. People have traded reality and a quest for progress, for entertainment and shallow pleasantries. It really bothers me, but there's nothing I can do to change the people around me. (I have tried.)
The way that I have found to cope with this is really to isolate myself from most people to keep away from the harsh reality of it all, but I can't do that enough, it seems. I feel wrong, at times to judge others, but I know these same people would judge me in the same way on certain issues if I were to share them. I consider it my responsibility to judge the world, including the people in it, if I am to live here. Maybe that is my purpose, to sort of be the eyes and ears for something bigger that I don't know about. Or, maybe that's what I tell myself to accept the state of my world.
Is this maybe just some kind of growth phase that I'm going through? Has anyone felt the same, and did it pass or did it get better or worse for you? It seems I'm at a very confusing point in life, which is kind of okay if it teaches me something. I realize the people who feel they have the most answers are often the most lost. I'm just looking to see if anyone else has felt similar.
Originally posted by mr10k
That is love. That is what you feel when you found the right person. Not 'faith' and 'time to get to know one another'. Not because you 'have so much in common'. It is that specific feeling, that you would give up everything in the entire world to make this person happy. That is love, and that is the meaning of MY life. I need to find that person. I don't care what it takes, but that is what I strive to find. That person is somewhere on this rock. Just being next to person will bring me great Euphoria, and being away will cause me to cry at night for what seems to be no apparent reason.
Originally posted by WickettheRabbit
I usually walk around (virtually anyway) with my nose held high believing that I'm better than the mass of people on ATS who are lonely losers stuck behind a computer dreaming of "unlocked potential", "higher dimensions", etc.
In this case, I feel this connection. It's like my life isn't in high definition anymore. Does that make sense to anyone else? It's like I'm seeing the world through some kind of filter. Like I'm seeing the world in third-person, but behind my own eyes. Think of first person shooter games. Even if your playing through the character's eyes, you're still only seeing what's on screen.
I don't know if I'm making sense.
Originally posted by Myomistress
It seems to me that whenever our consciousness in one way or another, the feeling is compounded. I wonder if that really means anything or not?