posted on Jun, 25 2012 @ 12:56 PM
I have the same feelings. I kind of see the origin as money, our current dependency on currency and consumerism. It is so unreal, untangible, and
yet we have no choice but to go along with it.. and that causes me extreme frustration, sadness, anger, confusion, etc etc. I try to isolate myself
from it, but then my natural need for social interaction with others seeps in and causes me issue.. Obviously I am having a rough time trying to
balance myself. It goes well a few months, and then I find myself falling back into the trap because "I have no choice." I keep telling myself
that, 'I have no choice" but in reality I do have a choice, there is always a choice, and I must accept the current state of the planet I have been
placed in, in order to escape those feelings of desperation..
So now, I go to work, but it's not because of money, I go because I enjoy my coworker's company and when my customers leave feeling good about
themselves, it gives me joy. I try to avoid shopping, I try to avoid TV and internet (ATS and ondemand are my vices, but I have cut back!), and just
really listen to my intuition on what I would like to be occupying my reality with at the moment..
It's rough, and I try to talk to people and they become very defensive about their ways, rather than opening their mind and listening... Those are
the people I know to slowly back away from because they will never change.
Sit back, and enjoy being the observer.. If this is all simulation, you have nothing to lose on the sidelines... You can wholeheartedly participate by
all means, but even if you feel "Above the game", it'll eventually suck you back in somehow. Personally, I am terrified of becoming pregnant for
this reason--- stuck indefinitely.
So, your answer is Yes, life is surreal, because it is surreal. Everything is perspective, we don't know the truth, but you are not alone in your
thinking whatsoever. You feel like life will go on without you, and it will, life always continues on, the same as it ever was, people will forget
you because you are not like them, they recognize you are different, and therefore are indifferent. Heed everyone's advice: ground yourself, start a
garden, meditate, stargaze, on a day off from work, say screw errands and go visit local preserves for a hike, or your local lake for a swim, or if
you can't get away simply explore the nooks and crannies of your yard... utilize the leisure our Mother provides for us, life should be about
enjoyment.. You can continue your life peacefully, but you must not forget you are a part of something bigger. We must not think "It's a small
world" because the Earth has many more things to beheld, much more than we believe we know, and that is absolutely breathtaking and beautiful.