reply to post by TheOneElectric
I can totally agree with you, I'm double your age ( 38 soon to be 39) and I too am annoyed , no annoyed is not right , frustrated is better at the
work, sleep, work sleep routine we have.
I personally want more to my life than that, its like we are not given time to learn about ourselves, or our world or anything else for that matter,
we have to conform to the rest of society.
We are told from an early age from when we can first speak and reason that we have to work and work hard to be truly appreciated by our peers, I
remember both my mother and my grandfather telling me that, but over the years ( mainly from walking to work with the people) that it shouldn't be
like this, its a nagging sensation, tugging at the edges of my psyche, to not follow the herd.
I have reasoned that there is more to life than simply conforming, sure it pays a wage, but what can I get with that wage?, a few shiney baubles,
TV's , cars and then what? what can I take with me when I finally pop off this mortal coil?
All the money in the world won't prevent me from dying, no amount of visits to the gym or vitamins taken will stop me dying. All I can do is watch in
horror and shock that my life is slipping away , slowly day by day, minute by minute, I listen to family and friends saying " I've wasted my life"
and I smile as I have done the same, but what do they do to rectify it?
I have tried to rectify the errors of my life , in the past I have experimented with Astral Projection , and explored other 'alternative'
theologies about life, Wicca , other religeons, occult but all those things are frowned upon by the established order or even friends and family ,
Simply because they are different , the do not conform to the brainwashing schools and work and life in general wants you to have, I have since
AP'ing found out that there is an existance after this one ( or at least seems to be), and hence do not fear death when it comes I have tried to
explain this to friends and family and they laugh at me, I do not care, all the money is the world I cannot take when this body dies , the only
tangible thing I can take is my consciousness, my soul, the id of my life, me .
No shiney bauble wil journey with me, no car can drive me to my next destination, no TV will be there , all I have will be is what I am .
Work , commuting, TV, games, all prevent you from finding out your own truths about you, they are a distraction, to stop you learning that you do not
have to work , sleep or commute, but we do because are told thats what me MUST do to 'fit in' , to be 'popular', I do not want to 'fit in' ,
I'm not even fussed about friends, sure I speak to colleagues , acquaintances and family , I do not want to really sociallise with the majority of
them , I do not feel I need to, I want to spend time by myself to learn more about me.
My wife complains that I do not want to spend time with her, I spend 16 hours with her, she moans that I am always tired, I want to sleep because that
is when I experience the most 'life', I want to AP most nights, hoping and praying that I can control my consciousness enough to AP, but most times
I am too weary from work that I simply fall asleep and let the dreams overtake me.
Nothing wrong with sleeping IMO .
I have become paranoid over the time spent thinking about life in general, TPTB , the wars, the poisoned food and water, TV distracts you with
stories of doom and gloom, Newspapers are no better as they all prey on the mind to keep you focused in one direction, that direction is out, not
I have realised over the years that I have to prepare my own food to try and ensure that it is at least a healthier option than processed junk, drink
bottled water rather than tap, and the tap I do drink goes through filters, I don't smoke, or do drugs ( you couldn't tell from this ranting) , I
play the odd online game ( mainly to get away from TV), but more often than not I read , I daydream too much.
Over the years after eating home made meals, experimenting 'mentally', reading and such, not drinking soft drinks or smoking, cutting back on TV,
not listening to the MSM or news and investigating things that interest me that my IQ has increased more than it was in the past, I look at people on
the street, what them eat their burgers, drinking their cokes, smoking their cigarettes, being lazy in front of the TV and all I can see is 'dumb'
sheep, blindly following the herd , and that frightens me the most that they do not see themselves like that, they think they are popular, no, they
are being laughed at, by the people taking advantage of them, the media, the cigarette manufacturers, the banks. When I take the mickey out of them
they get annoyed and grimace at me , but if the media or banks or government does it they shrug , moan a little under their breath but continue on
their way or simply laugh it off and continue on their downward path. sad really.
The wife often tells me to grow up, but I shall not, as it means I have succumbed to conforming, I shall be an old man with the immortal,
indestructable attitude of a teenager and I will look forward to it, so should all of you.
Wow , I realised I can go off on a tangent , no wonder people find me confusing to talk to sometimes.