Something interesting (to me, anyhow) happened to me twice in the last couple of weeks. There are multiple possible explanations, some less exciting
than others depending on your interests. My mind is open to all of them.
Something I sometimes do is to focus sequentially on each part of my body while lying very still, from my toes all the way up to my head, consciously
relaxing each part as I go. If I do it for long enough, I eventually end up in a sort of physical paradox in which stabilizing muscles are
continuously trying to relax further than they can without me literally falling apart or something (lol.) Anyhow, one afternoon I was doing this and I
did it for so long that I eventually stopped feeling my body completely. I felt weightless and somewhat numb. It was as relaxed as I think I've ever
been in my entire life. I became aware that I was able to see, even though my eyes were closed. I was floating in space which was light grey colored
(like the color of bright fog or rain clouds,) and I could see intermittent rainbow-like colors flickering somewhere in the distance (almost like
lightning flashes in an enormous grey cloud that I was floating in, but the flashes were rainbow-like in coloration.)
I looked above me (from a reclining position) and saw my body "above" me. It was as if I had sunk "beneath" myself. I wanted to get up and walk
toward the rainbow colored flickering lights, but found that I was unable to move. I then heard a feminine voice (which I have heard before once in my
life) say, "Open your eyes." I replied, "If I open my eyes, I'll be back in my bed." The voice responded, "No - your other eyes." I became
aware that what the voice was implying was that I had to become fully aware of the form I was maintaining in this "foggy" realm; I needed to be
fully "present" in my perceptions and senses there
, instead of just being there and in my bed at the same time so to speak (I was still too
aware of my body despite not feeling anything, essentially, was the impression I got,) in order to gain the ability to "get up" and move around
freely. I tried very hard to do this. The sensation was akin to trying to pat your head and rub your belly at the same time (before you're used to
it) without moving one hand in a circle while patting, or vice-versa. I tried for several minutes to do it, and just as I tried to open my eyes in
realm, my physical eyes opened instead and I found myself in bed. I was simultaneously frustrated and excited.
The second incident happened just yesterday. I was doing the same thing, only this time instead of a grey foggy realm beneath my body, I found myself
"shrunken" into my body, as if I were smaller than my body, and was dwelling inside it, but separate from it. I could sense light and warmth outside
of myself, and felt drawn to it. Suddenly, something I haven't thought of or remembered clearly in nearly ten years appeared - my childhood pet cat.
It was so vivid and real that I was literally astonished that I was seeing him so clearly. I hadn't been thinking about him (or cats) at all, and I
had always had trouble remembering his face, yet there he was as clear as day. He was lying on my chest (the chest of the "me" inside my body,) and
purring happily and "kneading" me (some people call it "making dough" instead of kneading.) This startled and elated me so much that I again found
myself back in bed.
Now, as I said, there a number of possible explanations for these experiences. They could have been a form of self-hypnosis (which would explain the
vivid memory of my beloved pet lol,) and there are several other possibilities. All I know is it felt very real, and even if it was all in my head, I
can now remember fondly the face of a pet I couldn't remember for years because I had blocked him out after he had to be put to sleep due to lung
cancer. I think that's a psychologically and emotionally positive outcome, regardless of the explanation.