reply to post by Conspiriology
you seem fairly well educated to me, and yet you sound as though you have never been out in the real world.
i really don't share this w/ ppl too often unless i feel that it will help a person understand something. not something that i am proud of by any
means.. my black mark chalked up against me.
i had never been the type to do drugs and was known for such amongst my peers, my sis' and their friends for being the "clean" but still fun one to
hang out with. i was quite often the "inspiration", so to speak, for some of them who were "toking up" to quit (which, despite whether i would do
it or not, still think those who turn their nose up at those who do it are idiots... bc most of those who turn their nose up don't think TWICE about
what they are prescribed by their drs, which is often more harmful).
anyway, got a job as a personal secretary and literally would work sometimes 20 hours a day, get 3 or 4 hrs of sleep and have to be back up ready to
work. someone offered an upper (illegal and very harmful, but the variation of that drug can be prescribed by docs) to me, and lo and behold, ms.
innocent decided that just once, she'd bite.... i was hooked. i didn't decline like YOU and most would assume of someone consuming this particular
upper. i not only maintained my job, but became much more effective and ended up w/ a few raises from my unsuspecting boss.
i never stole, hurt anyone (except myself), and in fact, no one ever suspected, but rather took the effect of the drug to be effects of my working so
hard. the thing that woke me up to what i was doing to myself was when i looked in the mirror one morning and it hit me that being a size 4 when 5'
7" was a very dangerous place to be. i quit. just like that. i was never forced, never went to rehab (and the media has put out this idea that you
CAN NOT get off this w/out rehab and i cry BS), and so on. i just did. and this is a drug that some assume ppl who are on it are just dirty filthy
scums of society. i was not. yet, had i been caught w/ it and put away, THAT could have broken me and led to a less productive life than i have been
able to lead since getting off.
on the other hand, i was put on hydrocodone (10's) after being in a car wreck and having a serious head injury. after 2 months of being on this, i
continued to "fake" needing it because not being on it scared me. i found that a much worse addiction by far. the effects of that WERE noticed by
those around me. i have pics from that one still to remind me to never let a dr prescribe me those types of drugs for pain. i went through 4 more
months of getting it from different docs when i finally went to my family for help bc i just didn't want to be a slave to this any longer. getting
off of that after only 6 months was MUCH WORSE than getting off of the drug that others assume is the worse of the two. the first month i went through
withdrawels (i now have an understanding of what withdrawels REALLY are thanks to the drug prescribed to me) and after that another 4 months of
depression i wouldn't wish on anyone.
ppl either have a good heart or bad and it is time that we start being allowed to trust ourselves to make choices, deal w/ the natural consequences of
our actions, so long that we don't impose on other ppl w/ those things.
if someone steals for a drug, lock them up for that. if they rape while having a drug in their possession, arrest them for the rape. ppl that harm
others for their "stuff" have that in them already.... they might not know that, but they do. i loved my drug, but never once would i have thought
about hurting someone in order to get it. when i couldnt' get it, i dealth w/ the ill effects until i could get it.
we "fight" the war on drugs while ppl who are being paid w/ our tax money are stealing from our pockets, raping society, throwing innocent lives
into a war that has nothing to do w/ freedom and/or terror. that to me is far worse than someone who steals a necklace from their mom to get their fix
for the day. i am not saying the latter is okay, but the former is a bigger problem and affects far more of mankind than the latter does.
we seem, in this society, to lack the ability to be able to put things into perspective and prioritize what deserves more of our attention for the
greater good of the population. no wonder, because we are feeding into the hype of what the media puts out... well, not all of us, thank God.
[edit on 27-6-2008 by justamomma]