a reply to: Reverbs
So you were in the mindset of a thirteen year old when you wrote that? Well, thirteen year olds do not have much control over anything... and in such
times of feeling helpless; will not only bang their heads against walls, cut or starve themselves in order to have some sort of feeling or control or
power over the direction that their life takes.
So as an adult you still feel this way? The heirophant of any journey forces one to ask this single question: Who or what is holding you back... when
honestly looked at without pointing fingers or the mind at others being responsible then one is forced to do the adult thing and take responsibility
for it themselves.
Of course coping with adversity at a young age; can mean some of those coping mechanisms are not beneifical as an adult that should have full control
over themselves; but since those coping mechanisms were seen as positive and a safe place to go like Superman in his fortress of solitude? They are
actually a hinderance when one has free will and power to take command over their own life and the direction it takes; to not be crippled by old
habits and coping just because they are comfortable out of familiarity.
Eating is a natural function; no one conspires to eat unless they have to steal the food in order to do so... it was pretty clear; that I was refering
to manipulating people in order to get control through devious or decietful methods... yet another behavior of children as a coping mechanism to get
what they want or desire but really don't need... like pitching a fit for a toy in a store isle being no different than pitching a fit because a
girlfriend or other adult will not do as you expect or attempt to command them to do in that ideal world so one can get what they want out of it... as
such people age? Their tactics of manipulation get more and more complex in order to get their way or be in control or at least sense that they
I speak of observations about life itself; each thing could and should be taken impesonally because it effects more than one person in it's
manifestation as a behavior to be observed... having seen such a thing and observed such a thing and what it leads to time and time again? I point
such things out; as it is a way that people self sabotage and do not even know it or are aware of it... so going on defense as if I was attacking you,
instead of hey heads up if you or anyone else for that matter were not aware of it? Such a thing is not doing anyone any favors but the self doing it
doesn;t know that; because unless one honestly looks deeply into it? Will not see it... and if they do see it; and not specifically this in
But even what I said about many mystics etc. not wanting equals becomes a sort of control; because when the people become equals? Then what use is the
mystic etc going to be? So they end up feeding off of the people looking for help; but have actually ensnared themselves and end up living in denail
that; that is what they are actually doing.
Same thing... excuses never lead to any progress at all; just a continuance that does not help anyone.
So if what you said in your heart of hearts is true about wanting to point to people on the path; then dropping what does not help others; regardless
of what it causes or creates for the self to experience? Is the proper way to go about it.
No it is not easy; I'm not going to pretend it is either... the easiest is to throw up my hands walk away and write the world off and everyone
ernestly seeking or reaching out to help and support in that endeavor when it does get too damned tough to continue.
You know how Peeple has stated; sticking to the script or lie one tells themself? Same thing just said in a way more wordy manner.
Perhaps I have neglected my "personal" needs for others needs a bit too much and to an extreme... I've seen it as a worthwhile trade off sacrifice of
my needs and treating others better than they would likely ever treat me. Of course that is inviting the ego back into a house that no longer
exists... thankfully people have stepped in my path and pointed at things very very painful to look at or were hard to see; and instead of lashing out
at them? Looked that what they were pointing at... the reaction I have seen of others not taking the same as a lesson as I have? Has left them
screaming someones name at bathroom doors so and so why wont you talk to me? why are you avoiding me?
Duh because all you're saying or demanding is only about you... demanding explainations like they owe them something; when they as an adult don't owe
another adult a damned thing unless written in legalease where both parties have signed it with a witness to notarize it. Not even realizing? Because
the self not only expects but demands it? That person they are screaming at? Gave them the best damned lesson they will ever have in a long time... if
they do one thing... set the self down and take a really good look at it... that dude yelling at the ladies room door is an animal that has backed
someone into a corner... ferociously snapping at them like a wild rabid dog thinking they have any right or control over someone else... like they OWN
them. Rediculous and not the behavior of adults; but nevertheless. an "adult" doing it.
Well, I'm not yelling at your bathroom door... I am pointing at what will keep people from doing it; or having to go through it; if they do one thing?
Honestly look at how they attempt to control others in their life...
So was this the expected reply to what you wrote? Or something different than what previous reactions have given you when you've done the same thing
in the past?
If I didn't care about you I'd have shown you a mirror of yourself; so you could hate me but it would really only reflect you... instead I gave you a
looking glass; a shortcut to however many years it would take yourself or others in it's contemplation to see all the senarios in which they have
watched seen or been a part of what I am explaining has played out; why it has, and how to see the lesson in it... without actually having to do
through it, or if they have keep repeating it until they finally do see it.
You are not your actions; unless they become habitual patterns supported by thought... so why should I guage you Reverbs? Do you want judgment... not
my place; as I show people how to judge themselves in the face of reality. I can't ever know you because I am not you... so judgment is best left up
to you as that responsibility. Same with everyone else; and it is of course; freewill to do so or not... best to hold oneself accountible for ones
actions before someone else does. That's how taking control of oneself without banging your or anyone elses head against a wall actually occurs...
whether one is 13 or 300.
edit on 13-1-2017 by BigBrotherDarkness because: clar.