originally posted by: Mousygretchen
a reply to: BigBrotherDarkness
I don't know about all that...I just know that At times I have been in forests and I have been able to feel all of the people and animals who have
passed through. I can feel the histories and the energies resonating throughout tree branches and overgrowth.
I want to admit that I often feel dumbed down in comparison to everyones deep philosophical discourse.
I was on another thread today about enlightenment and those posters seemed to be so advanced in their spirituality that I was just feel ing left
Meh. You already know all you need too; it's pretty well evident by you being able to go into the woods and feel all the energy... of course, walking
out of that and into some discussion of those things... is the portal effect from one place to another, a coming and going, a separation of that from
one instance to the next... like meditation can only take place on a cushion with insense and candles effigies and all of that other crap... like that
feeling in the woods can only take place in the woods... when it is always present... I suggest looking into what is being held onto or surrounds you
that impedes the flow of it, cutting you off from it as something that is noticed as always occuring.
Discussion is just that discussion; no need to blow out your candle and sit in the dark thinking someone else's light of whatever it is will somehow
re-ignite your own in comparisions... it's always lit always shinning and always glowing with the radiance of who you are, unless we cover it up or
blow it out as if it is insignificant... humility is not self effacement as there is no self in it. What you read and comprehend of someone else is a
mirror to your own light reflecting in what is experienced... and that experience unique to you. All of those involved in that discussion had a whole
different outlook or comprehension of it than the one that was unique to you. Ego says yeah my reflection is great in the eyes of everyone unaware
that the only point of view holding onto as an ego is the only one they have or will ever see; and all other facets or points of view are just as
valid, just as precious as their own... shedding that self; one becomes like a grand parent watching their grand children play, smiling a glow that
reflects all the light seen.
That's the exact reason I have caught myself smiling stupidly so very many times... the beauty and light shinning from everyone even those one may not
agree with; because they are so rote or self important it becomes cute in it's own right... but since it is not from true self expression and just an
ehco across a canyon not the source? It becomes sad because they have allowed their own light to be covered up and then mistake it as their own; when
they are just carrying a banner and labels as truth which is in one of acceptance without question, a disregard for all else without true inquiry that
challenges all that was accepted because it just made sense or felt right at the time, building and building a self that really has no self in it at
all... and in such a manner there lay the potential because they are already selfless just not aware of it. Hence why it gets referred to as
ignorance... of course then it takes what? Even more concepts and dogma to realize that they are doing the exact same damned thing as they were
already doing... just swapping out one concept and ideology for another! lol if it sounds insane? I can assure you it is...
So never mind what I or anyone else says or thinks even yourself... and well, you are right back in those woods feeling all of that energy no separate
or different from yourself because those feelings are arising from you as they reflect on you... as a transciever for them to express their own
nature, which is no different from your own in reality unless blocked or cut off from it.
How many BigBrotherDarknesses are in this thread? As many as there are people that read my posts; as that's the only place I exist and the me that
exists to each and everyone? Doesn't nor will acually ever exist any place else... that's reality if someone wants to speak of woo and magic. The same
thing is of course universal to all we have or can experience.
While it may sound lovely or neat... I dont expect nor want anyone to believe it or even just rotely understand it. But have direct experience of
it... that's the problem with mystics, secret societies, gods, goddesses and all other sorts of woo masters etc. in my opinion... most typically don't
want equals in equality or awake and aware in the truth; they want esteem, title, and whatever else they can get because once everyone already knows
or has experienced directly what it is they want others to think them special over or significant to set them apart then what good are they?
So ego draws a line narp dont want equals because I want to be wanted I want to be needed and then that becomes the reason or desire behind all they
do instead of truth itself... and well since truth itself is why everyone is drawn to such people professing to know in the first place? Then deciet
has already taken root and none is to be found from them in the slightest... except a mirror to one of the pitfalls to avoid, if one finds themself in
such a position themself... self deluding in deciet and then end up decieving others, as a result or karmic inheritence. This takes place in many
forms as a truth or trope, a framework unreality hangs on to cover up reality... so it isn't just religated to teacher/student roles... any one where
ideation of classism or hierchy can be found instead of one of equanimity.
That exact thing is why you felt dwarfed, in that discussion... it's that exact thing that takes place in roles of expectation, taught or programmed
in society a limitation not an avenue for growth and understanding... all life no matter the vehicle in which it is expressed is and always will be
equal; no matter what any concept, philosophy, belief nor anything else says about it same as the sun still sunning.
There's nothing special or significant about me, the special or significant is all around to be free enough to let it flow through the same as when
you are in the woods? Is what humbles until equanimity in no matter what arises or passes becomes the support. Embracing impermance makes impermance
embrace you back... it being the only permanent thing? Embracing it is a good idea; and one that is older than language itself.