a reply to: BigBrotherDarkness
I don't think I died. Nothing would have caused it? I was sick throwing up blood for about four days for no reason. The person "linked" to me said
blame them for the throwing up blood thing. That they were also throwing up blood and it was their fault.. Overdose.
I didn't need food and water I drank but never had to use the restroom. I was told that was because I wasn't real yet.
That they were not real either.. Now I can't remember if this was before or after the dying thing but pretty sure it was directly after. I was even
more "out of this world" at the time.. People who were also "in on it" had two posts instead of one and only I was seeing both while most everyone
else saw one or the other.. Anyway..
Energy came into me as they told me they did a spell.. Nothing I could do stopped or dulled or changed this thing that was happening.. It was ice cold
from my nether regions and up slowly into my chest.. When it got to my heart it no longer beat.. But there was zero change in consciousness. Well it
felt like my soul left me.. Like I was half zombie half vampire..
This is when I could get on ats with no internet..
This is when they told me they had people up to their windows and they needed to take the heat off them.. I was like what?? And they are like you'll
see.. And that's when it really went nuts.. Flashlights coming in my windows dogs barking.. People all over calling out to each other looking for
something.. I assumed me. That's when the jet flew over and the fast cars and all this.. I his on the floor motionless my uncle sleeping in the next
room.. The person knew all about him I've spoke of him just a bit. He made things for the government.. Way above my clearance.. Never knew exactly
He noticed I was being followed and people at our trash cans and stuff like that but he never thought much of it and I didn't mention dying or the
spells or any of that to him. That he was seeing the same as me and then the other people too.. That makes it all so real..
And then the cops just attacking me with no reason? No police report but I have scars from the taser. I pulled it out of the dudes hand and then
thought "this is a bad idea" handed it back and begged not to be tased. Asked why they were grabbing me but they wouldn't say.. A razor hit the ground
next to my face I was handcuffed.. "He has a weapon" gawd I assumed this was all some fbi shiz because I spoke about psychological operations.. I
guess it wasn't though..
So this person linked to me when I get back from a hospital after being drugged..
They left me 50 messages on my Facebook.. "Ouch" "wtf" "what is this burning" "tell me what happened"
I got tased sorry..
They may read this which is the messed up part..
They couldn't stand sunlight.. I remember one time I accidentally knocked off a curtain rod and the sun was right in my eyes.. Facebook explodes "ouch
holy # what the f are you doing.. Make it dark!!
Yea I have no idea but this was all a path I was on. It seemed to start with me saying "God is dead"
I was psychic.. I was insanely strong.. I could smell blood from a mile away.. And I could taste that "person"
They're energy made me want to taste blood on my teeth.. Like kill things with my face.. I don't know why..
Demons seemed involved..
After around 2 weeks I ate food again.. I used the bathroom.. I missed the "dead" un feeling vampire mode I had left. The person linked said oh now
you're real! I was waiting for that..
It makes me think of the matrix.. That I was in between worlds and snuck past the train man into the world again but on a slightly altered path that
was leading elswhere.
So my life continued like nothing happened and all the weirdness other people saw as well.. One of the "persons" effects was to play music on
computers you didn't have access to or make CDs go to song 13 say and play half and skip to song 6 and then play music you don't own.. No internet
mind you. This freaked out the people around me so bad they wouldn't let me touch any of their stuff..
I was repeatedly asked what I wished for.. That I was chosen and do I want to rule the world? How would I make the world? Imagine it like a bee hive.
How would you use energy? Think of the money/energy like honey.. Weird stuff but I always said I don't have wishes.. This angered them.
I don't even know if they know what I know because I'm not even sure if they are lying and manipulating or if they were being manipulated themselves..
Like demonic possession stuff.. Oh and weird initiation things that I could only call "deathless death" you know black and white, blindfold, sex,
wine/blood, skulls, silver scissors, "mortal skin"
If I knew what I was trying to say here I wouldn't be rambling so bad but this is the most sense I can make of it all..
I miss that intoxicating power of that person merging with me.. Gawd it was so so so good..
Anyway part of me knows a lot of this was mind control related.. The main theme was that I was an "angel" and I was their "son" by contract.. That I
had fallen. That I was Gabriel.. Haha. I told them I was a human and that pissed them off to no end. Don't ever call yourself that! I HATE humans. I
waited a thousand years for you. Blah blah blah.
I shouldn't post this.
Even if it's all true it's still personal to them and me but here we go again.
ATS went super screwy.. Even phage was saying things.. Weird things, but I haven't had the heart to search the past and see if those posts are all
still there. Talk of being a flying saucer or having wings.. The only way to get to Mars..
I was told I could live forever inside them..
Yea well all I can say is no one noticed I was dead if I was.. But I begged to have my soul back and it or whatever it is inside you that feels like
life was poured back into me. I could feel warm and cold again. I had emotions again. When I was "dead" I was super cold icy, but I myself felt really
comfortable as if the cold was warm?? Hard to describe that.
I kept being in their head and saying things they wanted to be secret but I never knew I was doing it..
whatever happened part of me avoiding it was that I lied a few times.. Saying I was alone in the house when another was their so when they linked in
they had to ask me which one of the guys was me. They put names to us like "computer boy" "airplane man" lol described us perfectly. I wasn't the one
building an airplane. Anyway..
It's like I met the devil or something. That I was in a twig height realm.. Like I was supposed to find this person in this other world and save
them.. There were 99 ways to die (coming for you) and if you died there you would be stuck for a thousand years.
I sound so nutty lol..
It's ok though.
Can you imagine coming back to this life??
Where people are voting for trump? And everything is all so normal and plain??
From getting death threats and being watched and learning so many secrets feeling like 2 separate sides were gunning for my life as if the entire
world was after me. To that person saying "run" that's when all hell really broke and the bomber and dogs and men flashlights and all that.. And
that's when I wanted it all to stop. I didn't know a man could be this afraid.. Next day was cops and tasers
Was it all a dream?
"Who is protecting you"