I go back and forth between duality and non-duality and haven't landed anywhere permanently yet.
On one hand we have detachment. Here you have a wonderful way of dealing with emotions and experiences by detaching yourself from the part of you that
is involved. This is truly ingenious and works in many cases for me. However it is in a sense a form of escapism, and sometimes feels like denial of
true self instead of realization of true self. I use non-dualistic strategies in my daily life and it is very helpful. But I cannot, or am unable to,
find true peace from this philosophy after years of studying and practicing it. However I am a huge proponent of this way of thinking, it will only
make things better. Tantric and other yogic teachings, Buddhist philosophy, books like A Course in Miracles, Seicho-No-Ie, Taoism, Osho, Tolle, etc,
all awesome stuff.
On the other hand we have duality. Fear and love, good and evil, right and wrong etc. We have always been drawn to this. This could be an
intrinsically human characteristic, or it could be a result of society. But it seems to be more the former, because seeking detachment is quite a
battle with the body, mind, and heart we were bestowed. There is virtue in wanting good, in sacrificing for others, in longing for world peace and an
end to suffering. In my frank opinion anyone who tells you that those things don't matter is not wise. Christ's teachings(the core of them) are
fascinating, mind-blowing, and have had a huge impact on me and my heart. But his teachings,the bible, or any other single book will never be enough
to satiate me all the time.
I have realized that as long as we are alive we will be unsure at times and unhappy at times. There is no such thing as %100 contentment all the time
i.e. "enlightenment" or "ascension" or "detachment" in their truest sense. I believe no human has or will ever, or is even capable of,
realization of the infinite truths of the multiverse and life. We have revelations and epiphanies...there are leaders who have had them and naturally
people are drawn to these moving experiences or theories. But none of them will give you true constant contentment. I honestly believe that we are
designed to never know. We however are CLEARLY designed to search incessantly, which makes the conundrum of life. Learning to enjoy and appreciate
this is a huge step in spiritual soundness, but people like me will always want to know the truth about existence. An important thing is to realize
that we are designed to search for answers, so we are ready and willing to subscribe to a philosophy that we resonate with in an attempt to fill this
void. I have realized that almost every philosophy has some wisdom in it, but none of them are the end-all be-all of this endlessly faceted life.
One thing we do know is that the Universe is conscious and alive, we are all connected in some way, and that we are a part of something huge. This is
awesome, and I find myself in a state of appreciation and thankfulness to be a part of the human experience often. But after zillions of books,
rituals, occultism, meditations, dogma, prayers, some time in a Buddhist monastery, I can say that I have learned a lot, but I cannot say that I am
enlightened in it's truest sense, or that I have found a philosophy that will keep me content or save humanity. I would venture to say that it
doesn't exist in the human paradigm construct.
This is just my experience, and I feel led to share it every time someone claims ascension, enlightenment, etc....the only thing that we know is that
we don't know