+1 Another one waiting...
Felt this thread demanded i make my first post
long time lurker.
26 this year, a catalyst for alot of spiritual growth generated a peak in awareness around 2008. Since then it's been coming and going in various
states of intensity since. Always passes... and comes back around.
Sometimes the timing coincides with others that i've identified as 'aware' since my late teens, I have one very good friend who has shared uncanny
spates of synchronicity since 2008, we try meet atleast weekly and share our growth, lately things have been getting pretty wild. Intense and semi
overwhelming doses of what, i can't even communicate.
In my youth and teens, i dealt with this sense of 'approach' by studying traditional martial arts, preparing myself for something i could feel on
the horizon that was going to affect not only myself, but those around me. I felt a need to be able to preserve, to be able to defend. I don't feel
it's me that needs be preserved, but others. Not trying to wax heroic or anything, but i look to young families of family and friends, particularly
since 2008, and am overwhelmed by emotion. Honestly, it's more like a relief, that I know that it's not for me. What fills me to the brim afterward
is a pride in humanity, overwhelming reassurance, a warmth that sometimes makes me tear up, and knowing that whilst there is life, and youth, there is
hope. And that, i feel nowadays, is what drives me. Almost like a my life is here to watch, listen and wait.
Even if my life comes to pass without this event occuring, i suspect perhaps that this drive, or sense, is correct. And perhaps this event or approach
is never meant to come to pass, and that this is just part of life, perhaps everyone feels it, perhaps my parents and neighbours. Despite my seemingly
separated and lone wolf attitude to life, i don't claim to be unique.
But i can confirm that i've been waiting, and i particularly liked the way another member articulated the more morbid aspect of it all, being that
they felt they have no other drive, as if in absence of it being fulfilled, they would be left to pass. That's me right here. However, i think i've
come to terms with that.
Honestly these threads aren't what bring me to ATS, it's the anthropology aspect of it all, ancient origins, ie; the Vedic and our past. But this
one, reeked. In a good way.
Peace in the middle East,