posted on Jul, 18 2012 @ 04:24 PM
Strange how you can meet and love a complete stranger over the Internet, isn't it?
I had a best friend I met on a site for writing called The Divine Darkness. He was one of the greatest people in the world. He was a father to me, a
mother, a brother, my best friend, and my worst enemy. Really, he was what a teen suffering with OCD, depression, and questions needed.
We talked throughout the summer and the first half of my sophomore year in high school. I had known him longer but we didn't talk as much until then.
But then his responses stopped coming.
I was scared and stressed but he wasnt there for me to talk to. He went idle for a long time. At this time, I had been stressed and paranoid. My OCD
became worse and worse and my anxiety went through the roof. At one point, I was so freaked out that I began to fear he was a crazy person trying to
hunt me down (strange how OCD instills paranoia). But then I found his obituary online. My thoughts stopped racing. I calmed down. I cried. I cried
for days. Weeks. I still cry sometimes and beg for his advice. He was that voice of clarity and guidance when I was lost in the abuse of the world.
And he was gone.
It's strange how life will give you the best people and then steal them away from you. It's strange how a kid in Michigan would find someone who
cared for them as their own child in Texas without ever leaving their own home to console them. I lost a father, a mother, a friend, a brother, and a
part of me that winter. I miss him so much and it isn't fair that he was taken away from the world so soon.
Strange how you can love someone so much, isn't it? So much that you can cry for years after their passing. Without ever meeting them in person.