Originally posted by thomas_
May I take this opportunity to ask something to you all nocturnal people?
How many of your consider your selves to be mediums or have extra degree of sensitivity to the environment or people?
Amazing question. I've always felt that way but I come in and out of it, depending on my sleeping cycle. A few years ago when I was out of school(I
studied in the morning), I used to go to bed at around 4am because I had no real schedule at all. I had been depressed, completely anti-social and had
failed my last year in high school before saying # it and taking some time off. I distinctly remember telling everyone that "this is exactly where
I'm supposed to be" simply because I experienced a lot of "deja vus" and "premonitions".
It paralyzed me in such a way that I didn't know how to react or what to do until the feeling was gone because it was all so different than previous
occurrences. The context which I had in my mind ended up to be nothing like what it was when it took place. Not the best example, but crying because
you're sad is different than crying when you're happy, right?
I felt a lot more connected, even though I was COMPLETELY disconnected from everything. But after the year was over, out of nowhere on the very last
week before classes began, I went back. Classes were in the morning once again, and except for the weekends, I was forced to start sleeping early. not
to say I liked it and it hardly did anything for me and I would sometimes sleep through all the classes, something I used to do even before. The
"deja-vus" and the "premonitions" were pretty much far and in between that year. HOWEVER, my level of consciousness around that time made it
easier to get myself to have lucid dreams and things like that.
I started taking some classes at night the year after graduation, while I thought it was perfect for me, I wasn't motivated and all I wanted was for
it to be over...just like my high school years spent studying in the morning. It literally sucked. Any extra sensitivity was slightly forgotten in me
going to the same "level" as years before. until now.
Lately I sleep at 6am wake up at noon, sometimes later, still study at night but I'm in college now, doing something I love. but that feeling is back
and it's particularly stronger now. But I'm no longer depressed or anti-social, and I've been questioning myself about this - I can't have lucid
dreams anymore, probably because I don't sleep as much or whenever I hit the bed I fall asleep almost instantly. But those other things are back and
they last longer. Recently I spent almost an entire week feeling weird about this, like my life is a movie I've seen repeatedly, but the context in
which I remembered it continued wrong.
But everything feels like it's connected once again. It leads me to believe that back then was just the beginning of it, like it was leading me here
and there's something bigger happening around(or inside) me that I can't see it or I don't know what it is yet.
What I mean is: I've always been really sensitive since I was young, but it grows whenever my sleeping is out of place from everyone else. My
creativity is all over, too. But at the same time other things I have in me that are hidden/forgotten all happen to come to surface when I'm aligned
with other people. These days I've been trying to keep both where I can see and find them and this was something I could never do/think of doing
I guess it all has to do with learning from and about yourself. I'm completely aware sleeping when everyone else is waking up isn't that good and I
try my very best to compensate. It's the least I can do.
Like those nocturnal humans before us, they couldn't leave the morning ones behind because they needed them in a certain level just as as much as the
morning humans needed them. Guess it's just a matter of accepting the differences..but that seems to have been lost in modern society somehow?