Excuse spelling misstakes, it's not my motherlanguage.
This topic is not much discussed and should be brought to light, or darkness
There are many people that are naturally nocturnal. Even science begins to acknowledge that. Most don't realize they are designed that way by nature
and struggle on and off with it. And most of society are completly ignorant about it. They call us lazy, evil, drug addicts and so forth. Doctors
prescribe us „medicine“ thats supposed to help us, afterall they think it's a sickness and we can change our rythm if we just wanted to.
The truth is most of us tried really hard to change it, but it doesn't work. Trying to live like „day people“ only makes us sick. We feel like
sleepwalking zombies if we have to get up in the morning. We never reach our full potential till the sun goes down. Personally im most active at
around 10pm till 5am.
This ignorance leads to lots of unneded problems for us. We can get bad grades in school, can't have all the jobs others can have. Many places like
bars, clubs, ect. have to close early. We have to be silent when we do stuff in our home, music has to be quiet ect. And if we are out late night we
can be very fast be supected to be a criminal. Many of us are a little lonely. It's not very easy to find somone to share the nights with, atleast im
not very lucky in that department. My husband could be nocturnal, but is forced to get up early for his job.
We are not lazy or anything bad, we just have a different rythm and should have the same rights and oppurtunities as everyone else.
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Heres my personal story:
I had to spend most of my childhood in a children's home because my mother got sick and couldn't care for me. It was led by nuns, and they were very
strict about when to go to bed, and it was always very early, around 8pm. Most of the night's i've found myself just laying in the bed, making up
fantasy stories with stuffed animals and would only fall asleep very late. Then through the day i was never feeling to well, felt more like a dream
and on autopilot.
When i was 13 i got back to my mother, wich was well enough to care for me, but had a daytime job, so i was pretty much alone all the time and had not
many resctrictions. For the first time i had my own tv in my room, wich only led me to watch tv till very late. I remember the best friend i had back
then, he was also nocturnal and only a block away. So either of us would knock on anothers window at night and we were off to walk around or do stuff.
It was beautiful to be able to do more at night then just laying quiet in bed watching tv, not to disturb anyone who was asleep. Walking around at
night just feels like pure bliss to me, it's quiet, peaceful, the moonlight is refreshing and i feel so much more alive, all the struggle and stress
Of course beeing up all night didn't help with school. Every night i would get to little sleep and would almost always be to late for school. It was
so hard to get up. I couldn't understand why we have to get up at such an ungodly hour. When i was in school i would be sitting at the window,
staring, struggling to stay awake and follow the teacher. Each year i was giving up the struggle more and more, afterall i couldn't concentrate
anyway. So i would most of the time listen to music, take a nap, or disturb others. I started to smoke to stay awake. Of course my grades got worse
and worse (and my iq is around 140) , everything felt like a waste of time, i got depressed and into drugs. Drugs at least got me some joy out of life
at that time. One day i just broke down. Stopped completly to go to school, got anxiety and all kind of problems . Took me years to recover, but
atleast i didn't have to get up early everyday for school anymore.
[edit on 20-3-2010 by Nightflower]
[edit on 20-3-2010 by Nightflower]