posted on Jul, 5 2009 @ 06:02 PM
I am truly sorry to hear your story. As I was reading, the thoughts that popped into my head were distasteful to your mother and the JW's. The old
me would have written that they are horrible people, your mom, too.
The me that has been breaking out of this cocoon lately, is telling me that first off, you need to forgive your self. Really and truely forgive your
This is not easy, but it will set you free.
And then, somehow, through self counseling or meditation or other means, forgive your mother. This is even harder to do. But this, too, will set you
I am not a religious person, I am very spiritual. Our thoughts, whether positive or negative, have a 'butterfly effect' on the collective
consciousness. If we dwell on bad feelings, that permeates outward and all are affected in some way.
Lightening your load, will lighten you.
My mother was very overbearing over my first daugher. Not like yours, but bad enough. I was not going to have my first daughter. My decision had
been made, and so was the appointment. My mother found out and was in my face 24/7 until I cancelled the appt and agreed to have the baby. Loooong
story short, she doted over this child, terribly. All but ignored my daugher #2.
Getting through the forgivenss process takes time, but I think it's well worth it.
As I read back over my post, I realized something... I think forgiving myself has been harder than forgiving others...