reply to post by berenike
I have been trying to NOT think about that man and his daughter- he's 80% of the reason I'm in the state I am in now. I am only recently clawing my
way out of the hole he tried to bury me in. The thing everyone says about a person 'giving' someone else power? It's poodoo. Sometimes, people TAKE
power from someone, whether they want it taken or not. I am still struggling with what's left of my confidence and self esteem. I have more than one
person tell me about the massive raw talent I have (had?). I am serious about this- I made a funny last night about someone discovering me and turning
me into Hollywood's next big thing. I was snickering about that.... My friend tells me straight out "Why not? You HAVE the talent- however raw it
Here's the kicker. I have all this supposed talent- and not a place to use it. I did have a period where I was going to try to find a casting agency.
Between every place I looked into was a scam of epic proportions, and my personal experiences with women acting like I was the second coming of
Quasimodo, It got a little tiring after a while. not to mention I am now too sore, too old, too ugly, and I don't know a soul in Hollywood, nor was I
inbred into Hollywood royalty- thereby making me ineligible for any sort of acting job.
Sometimes, I do sit and wonder about other people like me- how many are out there that have talent in one or more areas, who have had their heart,
mind, and soul just plain broken into a billion pieces- by religion, bullies, and the like? Ya gotta wonder how many good people have given life the
finger and are just waiting for Death to pull up.......