I punctured my vein and let this bleed out. (Wow, that sounded emo.)
Now that I've calmed down I've come to realize I severely overreacted. See, my buttons are easily pushed. I didn't want to say that, but denying
your flaws only drills a deeper hole in self-disrespect. Whether you're aware of it or not, it steadily becomes contempt and you can no longer accept
yourself due to your suddenly realization that you're flawed.
Some of you may already know this has happened with me once before. (Only last time it was much worse.) I've embarked on a self foundation
fortification. If you want to supply some building blocks it would be greatly appreciated.
Here's what happned on this thread in a nutshell ( nuts - HELL
1st, someone tried to debunk my heli claims (as ususal).
2nd, I disagreed and said I wasn't lying (which I'm still not lying. Sorry those of you who thought I was "coming clean").
3rd, the same person questioned me again.
4th, I reacted defensively. I answered each question to my fullest but they stamped HOAX automatically because of one answer: I didn't tell where I
live. I NEVER give any directions to where I live anywhere. Not on my Myspace.
5th, more posters came in and soiled my thread with uncalled for remarks.
6th, at this point, my thread goes from morphing UFOs to more about my other about being followed by heli's to ParaFreaky's a freakin maniac.
7th, more junky replies that have nothing to do with morphing UFOs followed (morphing THREAD).
Lastly, I threw a HUGE, childish, hissy fit and started deleting profile info.
Well, I'm tired of slamming my forehead on my keyboard. I have the R key jammed far into my left eye socket and need brain surgery to remove it. See,
I'm just too easily inflicted by flaming posts. I need to rebuild the barrier around my crybaby mind until I'm so thick-headed you can't make me
blink with stupid remarks.
Here's a little more about ParaFreaky:
1.I'm a 16 year old girl currently living in a country town.
2.I have psychoneurosis which makes it even harder to cope with emotions. (Look it up. It has nothing to do with psychosis; another possible debunking
clue, I think not. It is an illness of the nerves and emotions.)
3.I don't "clog the boards with disinfo." If I wanted attention or a hoax or easy points, I'd post an overly dramatic claim about a sensitive
topic like Georgia, bigfoot, or religion.
4.I am a creative individual who seeks a career in writing; I could write a much better "story" than heli's following me.
5.I'm a kind, caring, and fun-loving person who wants to help change the world. Not fill it with more filth and hate.
I believe these claims you'll find a bit exposing; I don't care. I'll tell whatever about myself 'cause I'm not fake. I'm not here pretending to
be someone I'm not.
I'm not trying to pull apologies outta people, but of course, it would be a very kind gesture. If anything I APOLOGIZE for reacting like an idiot.
Nor am I trying to guilt trip anyone. Hope I get my point across here.
[edit on 20-8-2008 by ParaFreaky]