reply to post by darcon
Well I´ll say a few things, since you asked.
I´d say my own spiritual evolution comes from observing the ego, I mean it´s really simple to me really.. to observe that is. I see a direction and
I think I should like to go that way, but then a thought arises that blocks that path and I try to find the root of it. There´s a part of us that
thinks there is only so much we can do.
What you have asked is a very complex and yet simple question. It can be given a simple answer(opinion) or a complex one. I´ll try to find a
Firstly and lastly I would say when it comes to understanding the ego, you are your best teacher in that one, like all things I would say. In that
sense I´m not sure what my opinion would do for you other then trigger a sense of re-assurance.
I mean the ego has many different forms and ways of expressing itself to me. I just look at everything like nature, like a beautifully simple and
predictable code. It was re-enforced with a recent vision in the jungle. I know that know matter how much I evolve there will always be a stronger
force pushing against me, kind of like a perpetual energy machine I kind of think of it... the obstacles help fascilitate the growth but its up to us
to really interpret just what that obstacle is.
It kind of seems to me like the more we evolve the more complex our ¨problems¨become if you want to interpret them that way. We just take on this
new way of living that becomes more complex as we grow.
Umm, an example.. right now you might be struggling with your emotions, but the day might come where you are struggling with your sense of omnipotence
or something of that nature. As we grow, the obstacles seem more complex, that is if you were looking at them from a mindset you had prior to a degree
of growth. Kind of confusing to describe how I feel on this, i almost wanted to dodge the question entirely.
I would just say, it seems to me that the struggle itself to overcome things seems like, well it seems like we´re getting somewhere with the effort,
thinking just a little bit more and I got this beat.
The problems seem to dissolve for me when I stop struggling. I don´t know how to describe that uhh.. ¨being¨to you. I find little tidbits about
myself, look at things from a different angle and eventually I just go with the feeling of it rather then the depth of complexity and become humbled
by my position, the realization of my sentience. I reach deep feelings of ¨Everything is alive¨and I stop trying to disect it and just feel it. It
almost seems like the questions themselves arise from the doubt of this aliveness.
I´m not one for giving lofty answers, except to anyone but myself. My answer to everyone else always remains the same ¨Have confidence that you
posess the answers to all your questions¨
I´ll leave you with this little thought, though I feel one with the all, feel I flow with the patterns of the universe and I am unique like every
snow flake yet part of the same soup of intelligence, that my very thoughts are reflected by the world around me and what it´s doing, If you had the
right equation, you might be able to predict my every thought and action unless I (a facet of all that is) decided to change it in that case you (also
all that is, also ME) is able to update that code to keep track of what I´m doing, but in that case, it was all a part of my own plan anyway, I do
what I want and create my own reality only I am humbled by the fact that my decisions are the decisions of the universe, thus not stepping on anyones
toes on a certain level of perception...and ultimately, at this point of my sense of individual purpose which I am content about, I am happy being
steve that is... its interesting that my moments of this high sense of self and purpose comes from the realisation that I live to bring others
together in peace and purpose.. that my individual drive is to benefit a collective. I find that interesting as far as a sense of ¨I¨goes. An ¨I¨
that cares so much about ¨we¨, but only because it makes ¨I¨feel ALIVE.
I hope you like that beautiful run-on sentence, haha.
Ok ¨I¨am off now. Why? because ¨I¨ (we, you) have chosen it to be so. It seems to be from this perspective.
A very broad yet simple topic indeed. I think it can be discussed forever, as discussing the ego is like discussing the meaning of life from different
view points, each reaching out infinitely.
Ok i´m done. I´ll be back for good on the 27th.