, if I may, you are likely the only one who will ultimately benefit from your faith.
You may be experiencing disappointment from seriously believing for something, but no result ever coming from it. If so, I relate well, and today
cannot support the business of genie-in-a-bottle faith, that if you believe then life will begin making a b-line uphill for you. But I do believe now
that spiritual maturity is not focused on physical needs, no matter how pressing they are. And, yes, physical needs are real, but as you see, worrying
and even slightly-nervous praying haven't fixed it.
Faith is a serious part of one's own personal becoming, an evolving understanding of who this unfathomable consciousness called "me" may somehow be
revealed to be. The Bible, the Qur'an, the Talmud, the Vedas, whatever reading or teaching you are internally and peacefully drawn to, use it only as
a guide to get moving. I urge this because no one book or religion is going to offer the entire package of Truth, no matter how deep it gets.
cannot be boxed, and it is far too multi-facted to attempt to control.
I am personally deeply intrigued by the Christ because of the astonishing examples of Love which He demonstrates time and again in the NT... literally
a true being of Love. I also strongly recomend that you love yourself (if you're not there already
, then increase that state of mind by the day,
giving attention to letting go of a bit of the ego's demands each day, as well. For example, there really is no need to hate anyone, even "evil"
people, because there is usually nothing you can do to fix those situations, so why spend precious mental energy on a negative focus? If the problem
has a fix, great, but even still you should always concentrate on not
feeling the negative demands of emotion, and this as much as possible.
Faith is energy. It is belief
. It is the texture of hope, even in a situation where you might just blindly make the decision to hope against
all hope. And, I hear and have personally seen a time or two, this kind of spiritual tenacity eventually strengthens you to a point greater than that
which may have oppressed you to this present point of dissatisfaction.