I had a thought this morning, that how interesting it is that people feel a need to hold onto their general consensus of reality. I usually get these
thoughts when waking up, comming out of dreams. And I must say..
This physical reality is the weirdest damn thing when you think of it. Little google-eyed humanoid bags of fluid moving around doing random tasks, in
a strange colourful world.
Its damn strange man!
I remember as a kid.. for some reason one thing seemed to really chime in my head... that everything is a really really strange illusion. I always
thought as a kid that it could all be some test or dream world or something. I guess even back then, I never really felt like I was completely
attached to reality, like it was the end all.
Anyways, this "phyiscal" world is too strange to be just that. It can't be random and chaotic, everything is planned.. extremely well.
EVERYTHING...flows, like liquid, or a gas.
This morning I woke up from a curious dream.. I was getting ready to have a band practise with people I've never seen before, I was also a different
person... an alternate reality, future life / parallel life, or just spirits who i meet on a common realm, and as well..since we arent confined to one
life/body/appearance, I chose a different one for the time being. I think that would all add up, except I think my mom was there, and I was in a
house representive of our own, even though it was different. The people were also in a car.. as in it had tires.. but it was big and different.. and I
had 2 guitars with me.. both fender stratocasters (crappy!).. I was just trying to compare things that were normal to my waking physical reality.
So anyways, I was just wondering the possibilities, I love to analyse my dreams. And I was actually kinda annoyed that my alarm clock woke me up, I
wanted to go back to sleep and jam with those guys.
I think we need to constantly question reality.. like every day when you wake up and still have memories of dreams in your head, and you see the new
'physical' world around you, every time you should be thinking "what the hell is this?"
I'd love to be able to recall a whole nights sleep. All i have is missing time and dreams (if I meditate I recall parts of them, mostly the end).
But I remember even reading somewhere that the general mainstream science idea is that we dont start dreaming until several hours into sleep, i
obviously think this is B.S. but it raises an interesting though. I want to know what happens during the whole process of sleep. I imagine it would
require a level of mastery, perhaps the frequencies are so different that our physical brain has a hard time decoding them and so we have the illusion
of lost time, when really the memories are there...but again, its like teaching calculus to a baby. (but in death.. or the discarnate realms, we are
able to understand these frequencies better, either through awareness or not relying on a physical body.. but you know what scratch that.. someone
said human body is perfect, and I agree. I see that it can be programmed and after-all its just a thought anyway.. so its as good as we make it. A
human body that can morph through walls and breathe fire is just the same as ours.. it depends who's in control.)
I'm not sure what the brain really even does for that matter, besides organise our thoughts to drive this thing! They say muscles move the body.. by
electrical impulses from the nervous system from the brain I guess. I think this is kinda funny when you look at what the brain is.. a pile of
cholesterol and water... So either... a brain is a source of like unlimited FREE energy waiting to be tapped hahaha.. our brain has enough
electricity apparently to move a body around for 100 years and here we are using silly fossil fuels.... or the alternative theory.. that the brain
doesnt produce any kind of electricity..and rather is just directs it.. isn't this what we already believe in science? neural-pathways and stuff?
But they still don't know what the electricity is or where it comes from. It's conciousness man! Its energy, why else would
meditation/awareness increase your focus/intelligence/memory and all that? We make new pathways to make this possible, the energy flows more
efficiently. Its like our brain is a blank computer and our conciousess programs it. Our awareness = our skills as brain software programmer. -
science HAS showed us that meditation does do these things. A university studied my freind and all her pathways were different then the norm.
Anyways.. i was ranting about dreams wasn't I?
Man... reality, whatever you wanna call it,.. I don't know.. I feel like.. my life is so stress free and everything is just humorous to me because I
am aware of whats going on, and i'm just focussed on my goals, and I just kinda smile when I think of the madness of the world, and how I feel like I
live outside of.. well thats not what I mean, what I really mean is i see everything as some complex/mathematical/beautiful imagination, that I just
happen to be experiencing. Like man.. I talked to this 9/11 truth movement guy today at work, he was giving out flyers, and I was thinking.. I used to
think about how I wanted to bring down the government, and fight and now I just feel I do an equally effective, if not better job by just putting
positive vibes out there? You know? thats what I feel matters most to me right now. Trying to resonate positive vibes, if everyone would do that, all
problems would fix themselves, and problems wouldn't occur. Its a chain-link reaction and the result is PURE LOVE, PURE PRODUCTIVITY... but the
powers that be, they know this, and they've been actively doing the opposite..
I remember watching Ben Hur not too long ago and I laughed because some guy was trying rationalise imprisonment of his freind and freinds family just
as an example, so that he would be a great leader, becase he would be feared. I just thought that was hilarious. And i know that this mentality still
Man, reality is damn crazy... I'm just trying to get through, and accomplish my goals because I know somehow energy flows that way, and I get
somewhat pleased from productivity, so i persue it. Along the way I try to positively affect others, because I feel like we're part of the same joke
and so I feel a commonality to every person, like I know everyone well in that respect. To sum it I feel I'm experimenting. My life is a lab rat and
the scientist. I'm trying to say I don't take much too seriously..yet I want things to work at maximum effienciency, you could say... my actions
indicate love, and I want the whole world to love. I just dont stress myself over the trials anymore like I used to. And I am confident in the natural
positive unfoldment mankind is going through.
Alright, that was a huge rant. Writing them down helps me understand my thoughts. By all means, anyone read and comment.
[edit on 4-3-2008 by CavemanDD]