posted on Aug, 14 2005 @ 07:58 PM
ok this is weird but listen
so yesterday i was hanging out with my xgf and was lite off my but anyways i have been dealing with her for like 5 months cause shes one of those
immature ones that are like hey i wanna get back together but hey now i dont...huge tease. but since i was in love with her and i still love her i
have trouble staying away from her trap. well last night i was really lite like i said and she ticked me off like by not talking to me or sum , i
dunno w/e i was an angry drunk regardless. but anyways basically i told her "f you, im sick of your crap, your immature, keep breaking hearts ur good
at it, no the best etc." well like after a little argument that was totally a fault by me, i started saying like i wanna cry and die, u know sumthing
that an obbessive x would say lol, but im not like that i just said it to tick her off. well finally she said she dosent have feelings for me anymore,
and this comes right after she tells me like 5 days ago she misses me and loves me and u know a tease.
well ok this morning i wake up sober, and at first i was upset, but then i looked at a clock and it said 11:11. and i was like wow thats odd, not
thinking much about it i leave about an hour later to drop my friend's phone off at his house and as im leaving 11:11 is on my car clock, and whats
odd is the clock is off by like an hour and half, and i glanced over it like wtf. well i realized that 11:11 can symbolize that ur on track, and i
thought like wow maybe what i did, as as it was to do to her, was the right thing and like i thought how she said she didnt have feelings anymore for
me, and how it made me feel better to learn that i wasnt missing anything by not being with her, just her antics, almost like i finally heard what i
needed to, and whats funny im in like the best mood ive been in in like months. so i guess what im saying is did the mouse finally devour the hawk, or
i guess did i finally step up and do the right thing and that is y im seeing 11:11. i dunno lemme know what u guys think.
its important to note that i am very spiritual in a psychic nature i guess u could say, i practice astral projection and such.