Grief and the afterlife

Awe, thank you guys.

Yeah, So....

I watched a YouTube video about the Firey pit of hell and started to think afterwards. As I pondered my going there soon.. a growl and sinister laugh played into my left ear. Spoooky shid, man.
Im screwed. Repent. Repent. Oh ATS repent.

a reply to: Pinocchio

What makes you think you're screwed tho
Pinoc? Why so negative?

a reply to: randyvs

I willingly and repeatedly curse everything and anything in sight when I'm smug. Thus no God is spared in my rambling.

a reply to: Pinocchio

And I can't say I blame you for the cursing
or being smug. If it helps you feel better
ramble on. I'll just read.

a reply to: FamCore

I have had loads of dreams of speaking and hugging my brother and when I got the time I post the strange thing that happened around his funeral.

originally posted by: randyvs
Hey what's up my fellow members and learned lurkers? Hope you are
all doing well. I'm sure many of you know my presence here as a very
active member has diminished considerably this year. And I'll build an
approach to my topic by speaking directly to that.

So it isn't only ATS that I have taken leave from. The unexpected passing
of my wife July 13th of this year didn't cripple only my fingers. It with
out mercy shattered my entire world as if it were made of suger glass.
( glass used for movie stunts).

I won't even try to use words to describe the grief that gripped me
in its coils. But work will see me return tomorrow, as I regain my
strength thru some promises I made to her, the night she took flight
ahead of me.. And I make a rather bold statement very often these days.

I don't believe Adam loved Eve as much as I love my wife



God bless and good will to all who read here.

Oh my God Randy.

Words fail me. I can't even begin to imagine what that must feel like.

We've "known" each for quite a while here, and I've always enjoyed your posts. But my respect and admiration for you after reading this has increased exponentially.

I wish I could offer more than just words. I really do...

Stay the course mon ami...I've got your 6.

-Riff

a reply to: Riffrafter

Ah how nice to hear from you Riff. We've had
a good share of the fun around here for sure.
Thank you for the kind words.

a reply to: 808Funk

Dont forget me Funk.

a reply to: randyvs
When I got time in the next few days I write it down and hope it brings a smile to fellow posters.

a reply to: randyvs

You sir, are very blessed. I'm a believer, like you. My mother died suddenly around a month ago. I'm still processing it. I've just started a family of my own, im young. I need her. We need her.
It seems to me everyone else has dreams and visitations and love and light and reassurance blah blah blah. All I've had is deafening silence. I'd give anything to see my mum one last time in a dream.

a reply to: morganlumer

I garantee you will. But sadly it will not be enough.
But you will. Give it time.

so sorry for your loss 😢

My Brother died in February this year. It was a shock and totally unexpected.

Since then we reassure ourselves with the belief that he is still alive somewhere else and we can't see him.

Haven't had a dream of him yet but had some other strange moments. For example: mum and I were watching 📺 TV in the lounge and I heard water running. The tap in the kitchen was running. We didn't leave it on.

There has been other oddities.

Well it's nearly a year now since me and my sister found my brother dead and I have had some realist dreams and some crazy dreams with him but a few strange things have happened like we had a massive paddle out in the sea a day before the funeral as he was a Surfer and as soon as we went out the skies went dark and the atmosphere went very heavy and eclipse like and as soon as the surfers got out the water the sun came out.
It's funny but on the funeral notice the dress code said 'Come As You Are' in reference to Niverina as my brother looked like Kurt Cobin and just after leaving my mothers for the paddle out that came on the radio.
The day after the funeral a load of Dolphins were spotted jumping about in the sea not far from the shoreline.
I leave you to the music at the cremation.
Miss you and love you brother.
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