a reply to: Night Star
Well, that meal went from confusing, to awful, to worse. There was nothing wrong with the food of course, but the atmosphere while eating it was
I called mother on our works phone, to ask her if she wanted food, and instead of answering yes or no, she just went ahead and told me she would be
making the order for me. "Ok." I think to myself,"obviously something on her mind at the moment, probably several of them. I will just call her
when the food arrives, so that it does not get cold before she gets up here from the shop."
Well, there's me, thinking I had this all under control, and all the time, something was brewing up somewhere that meant I could have said or done
ANYTHING and it would have been a problem. The food arrives, and I drop call (you let the phone ring twice, then close the call) mother to let her
know that the food is here, and that rather than sodding about with crappy work stuff, she needs to get her butt upstairs, and consume food, which is
the only ACTUAL reason to do any damned work in the first place if we are honest about these things!
She spent the ENTIRE time I was trying to eat my meal a) not eating her food, which I had bought for her, with my own, piss poor amount of money, and
b) making it impossible for me to enjoy my food, by basically having a go at me about nothing, and everything, for what ended up being two hours.
I worked my arse off today. I am not perfect, but I did what I could today, and even made it so she did not have to cook for her self, or me, or any
other bugger. But because the little I could do, was not done JUST so, because I drop called her, because our neighbours were on their way down the
stairs when she came up, and because I apparently made her feel rushed by calling her, she had a problem.
She is a legend, my mum. We have been through the works together, let me tell you, and I love her to death. But her priorities are SO messed up
sometimes, I do not even know how she managed to get out of the damned womb sometimes. She is a very smart woman, very determined, elemental, but
sometimes she gets het up over the most utterly asinine things, and says the most outrageous things to justify it.
I was, and am, very tired. The food did nothing, because the stress of that two hours made my guts churn like a demented butter producer. I am now
tired and pissed off.