posted on Jan, 9 2012 @ 10:11 AM
Let me preface by stating that I know next to nothing about this particular area of knowledge. I wouldn't have called it knowledge before, I'd have
used something much more derogatory or cynical. I have had very minor sensory experiences before (brother and I are perfect on guess the number 1-100
as kids on a car ride until it freaks the folks out, go 30 for 30 on predicting dice rolls, and I always seem to know when someone's gonna river me
in poker, etc.) but nothing that ever stuck or that I could duplicate. As a result, I tended to write off most discussions of this nature as fantasy.
Yes, I know that my examples are loosely related to this topic or not at all, but I included them to characterize that I lumped quite a few unrelated
things together, and was completely clueless and cynical about things I could not touch or explain.
I also usually avoid "energy" threads here on ATS. I'm more drawn to the NWO and "I'm the reincarnation of and I will answer questions"
threads. I clicked on this one though, and that might be because it's main paged, or it might be something else. I dunno.
Anyway, I've had a weird confluence of experiences that I would just ignore if they happened in isolation, but they weren't in isolation. They also
mirror what people are describing here. I still eat like a horse though! I might order a pizza when I'm done writing this.
1. Optimisim/Frustration/Anxiety: I'm in a career switch right now, moving up from teacher to administrator. Money is fine, fortunately, so aside
from fear of the unknown and all that, it hasn't been a source of stress. However, I've always been unsure about my future prospect for employment
in the new field, with no real good reason other than the usual worry associated with a move like this. I woke up a week ago, and literally KNEW that
I would find a position, and soon...even though I'm still finishing up my certification. This was more than optimism. However, I've also been
plagued with residual anxiety and frustration/anger regarding my old positions. I left on good terms with all of them, but it's like the bad stuff
that went on (stuff that happens in any job) seemed to come to the forefront and carry more weight than it ever did, or should have for that matter.
I'm not prone to panic, but I was in what could be considered a minor panic attack. No reason at all for this, that I could come up with anyway.
2. Sleep: I normally sleep like a baby. Lately, I can't sleep at night, to the point where the 2 o'clock lull puts me on my back. I'm not
anxious or anything, I just lie there awake.
3. Vivid dreams: Again, I normally have no recall of my dreams. It's rare that I have any memory. It's an everyday thing lately.
4. Perception: I haven't had any precognition or anything, but everything seems more in focus. Stars brighter, words clearer, etc. This is to the
point where I notice it, am taken aback by it, and find myself just staring at things that I normally would have ignored.
5. Relationship issues: My wife and I have a fantastic relationship. No issues at all. I find myself being petty though, lately, and taking the
minor bumps and scrapes as more than I should lately. She's very forgiving about it, but I can't explain why I would act so out of character with
6. Open-mindedness: I never tend to see possibilities...I tend to see correct and incorrect in things. When I'm proven wrong, I adjust and
continue. Not so lately. When someone tells me that Tim Tebow threw for 316 yards to convey the meaning of John 3:16 to people yesterday, I chuckle
but do not instantly dismiss. I don't buy in either, but I see myself reserving the right to see possibility. As recently as three weeks ago, I
jumped all over those people. Hard.
The best way I can describe it is, it feels like growing pains. I see myself becoming a better, more open-minded person, but it doesn't come without
trial. The things that used to hold me back appear to be trying their best to continue that trend. That said, I'm catching glimpses of something
different, and it's having a profound impact on me. I wouldn't even give it a second thought, if it didn't happen in such a compressed time frame.
Two weeks. I would normally expect shifts of this nature to be gradual, almost imperceptible, and not filled with dissonance and abrupt changes.
Sorry for the long post. Reading this thread and articulating these thoughts has helped me to get my mind around something that's happening to me,
and I hope that other clueless cynics who have no clue what's going on right now might take some comfort in the fact that another clueless cynic