Hello there, I have read all pages of this post and I think you are very brave and with sharing your problems, you actualy like to talk to people,
even if you said you are acting diferent and avoiding straight conversation.. Few years ago I had some bad experience with mushrooms and I woke up
hearing voices, felt like I m hunted by some spirits or aliens, this lasted for two weeks and it wasnt a standard drug halucination, since that isnt
lasting for so long. I was talking to myself (to them) I didnt slept and eat a lot, I was scared and behaved like a little boy, expecialy at night...
But somewhere deep inside I felt there is something wrong and I wanted all the thinks to stop. All the symptoms I got were similar to schyzophrenia,
but after two weeks it simply stoped, I didnt took any medicaments, but my mind "got tired" and I quickly started to realize, its all just my
imagination and not real and at this point I broke down, since I wasnt now able to trust my self anymore, but slowly it came back.... I was at a
spiritual healer two times, but I didnt came more, because he told me I m a miracle and he can teach stuff (maybe I m sick, but I m not stupid and
will not give money to scumbags
) so actualy I passed it all alone and I feel much stronger, then I felt before. I stoped with drugs and all, I
have read a lot of books about science, spirituality since then and I came to one conclusion - we live only once, and we have to enjoy it, every day
and every second is a challenge, everything and I better do enjoy it than spend my life searching for god or watching the skies and waiting for
something that will never come... It was hard to "rethink" everythinig that happend to me in those two weeks and some was realy more then my
imagination, since my girlfriend confirmed she felt simliar thinks, when she was with me, like some energy waves etc... Well mind is incredible and
powerfull and can trick us, but what keeps you connected to reality are the people around you and by the way they act and respond to situations and
feelings you know what is real and "normal". I remeber once I was drinking outside with friends and one crazy old women in the middle of night stopped
me and told me : "If you stop listen to "nature" it will stop exist.." and she is actualy right its like that movie (I cannot remember the name,but
there was a big flying dog) when the boy was about to save the fantasy world, which was about to end, because people stoped to believe in them. This
is how I passed those voices, since I figured out its not a word that I hear, but its just the window moved from wind and it was actualy true... Be
strong and I wish you to have a good aproach in future, life is a challenge its not if you win or lose, but if you play
Srry for my bad english ,but its not my native language.
edit on 11-4-2011 by Zixo1 because: gramma...