I am both amazed and disgusted at the high level of ignorance and insensitivity displayed in the
Suicide And The Aftermath
thread by some individuals in regards to the topics of
depression and suicidal ideations. To claim depression is NOT a real and serious mental disorder is beyond naive. I can tell you from personal
experience that what I feel and suffer through every day is very much a real mental disorder.
People who do not have depression think of sufferers of depression as pathetic and weak individuals who mope about the house feeling sorry for
themselves. They claim all it takes is venturing outdoors into society, socializing and meeting new people, and making changes to your life and
situation. These changes do help some, but not all sufferers of depression. The sufferers of depression these changes do help have situational
depression, not clinical depression.
Yes, there is a difference.
Situational depression is an overall bleak outlook on your current lifestyle; a dissatisfaction with your current standard of living. Clinical
depression is a true disorder of the chemicals of the brain which cannot be treated or cured by going for a walk or talking to a friend.
I have clinical depression. Without the aid of medication, my typical day consists of a strong build-up of anxiety throughout the day until it erupts
into a full blown panic attack. I suffer from racing thoughts of hopelessness and helplessness. I feel trapped inside my own body and my own mind. I
see my world as a prison which I cannot escape. When I am in this state of mind, I see no way out; I see no end; I feel locked in my suffering for the
remainder of my life.
This is the point in which many sufferers of clinical depression contemplate suicide - when they feel there is no other way out. These feelings and
thoughts are not made up; they are not fabrications of someone's self pity or seeking of attention. They are actual feelings and thoughts unleashed
upon the sufferer by his or her own brain, and it is inescapable without either medicating or killing yourself.
People who do not suffer from depression have a great misconception about how depression works and feels. It is not about whether you have a good life
or a bad life; it is not about whether you are financially stable or unstable; it is not about whether you have a lot of friends or no friends;
Clinical depression can happen to anyone and it affects everyone in the same way. No matter how great your life may be, if you suffer from clinical
depression, you feel the same hopelessness, helplessness, stress, anxiety, and pain that someone with a terrible life feels. Clinical depression does
not care about your life situation.
That is what a lot of you are failing to understand. Those of us with clinical depression do not seek attention, pity, or sympathy. We seek a way out
of the cell our mind has imprisoned us in.
edit on 11/7/2010 by PETROLCOIN because: (no reason given)