reply to post by PETROLCOIN
As someone who does not take anything or see anyone for my issues..
As you see in the suicide thread you linked to.. I am a real screwed up person..
Suicide thoughts are a freind to me because I think that is the best way to deal with how F'd up my life is..
Things that happen in my life that are negative are bad because there is no way to stop them.
I am angry, hateful, and resentful about alot of things in my life..
That post i made about suicide was because i watched that movie The Bridge Documentary and was mad on how cold some of the family members where after
thier loved ones suicided..
I live day to day knowing things will stay screwed up..
Someone said for me to make a change in my life. I tried that, guess what it blew up in my face and left me worse off than what i was..
I Do things slow and dont assume i will get somewhere cause chances are i will end up nowhere...
Suicide when and if it comes, will be a relief through the bs I go through day in and day out..
But you know what.. If i had a choice to be a normie or be me, I would always pick to be me.. No matter how F'ed up I am.. I will always be better
what a normie will ever be..
Just cause i cant go hang out with a million people or make my life better does not mean it sucks being me.. There is alot of good in me that i give
to other people.. Stupid thoughts, art, things to think about, and knowledge... These are the greatest gifts someone can give someone, material things
are so over rated..
And to the Arnold Schwarzenegger guy. not everyone wants to bulk up just cause thier mind is crazy.. Some of us like how we are because it makes us
us.. true individuals.
Hey I just realized i made a positive about myself.. WEEE!!!
edit on 11/7/2010 by ThichHeaded because: (no reason given)