Originally posted by ThichHeaded
I think about suicide a couple times a day.. Honestly the only thing that keeps me here in this dark miserable life is the fact that I see a really
cook sunset now and again..
Might I recommend you speak to someone about this? Not necessarily a doctor, but a friend, anyone. Talking helps more than you think, it might help
them understand where you're coming from and conversely might help you understand them.
My question states this..
Why do people think a suicide is something they are not? I am sure they were going through more torture in life to even contemplate death..
Death of someone you know is hard enough to take in as it is, it's often too much for your brain to take in all at once, you sometimes try and find
someone/something to blame. Then add in that the person commited suicide. They may blame themselves for not spotting something was wrong, maybe if
they'd have been kinder/more talkative/had more time/other. They may also blame the person that commited suicide, if they'd only have asked for help
maybe things would have been different.
I personally have attempted suicide once when I was 16. I came close a second time when I was early 20's, which was a nervous breakdown. You think
no-one cares, you think that doing so will make those around you's life better, that they wont notice, that it wont matter to them once you're gone,
that no-one could possibly understand your torment, that no-one would help ...
... Truth is, we affect more people than we realise, people care more than they show, we would hurt a lot of people if our lives were to end. The
second time, I realised this and as my night shift ended I contacted 2 close friends who came and met me at seven in the morning. I accepted that I
needed help. They supported me, took me to the doctors and I was on medication for a year. Medication isn't for everyone but the first step is
accepting that you need help, realising that accepting help isn't a sign of weakness, that you're not alone.
That's not to say that everything is perfect now, far from it, I still have my off days, you never truely "get over" depression, but you learn to
distract yourself from it, find ways to make it easier.
So don't be too hard on the people that say that suicide is a cowards way out, unless they have been through something similar, they will find it hard
PS: If you do ever need someone to rant/talk to, my door is always open
edit on 6/11/2010 by phoenix_zephyr because: Spelling