I have been thinking a lot lately about suicide. I have slowly lost interest in every damn thing. I am not anymore interested in buying fancy stuff
and I have enough for survival. I closed all my ongoing work and projects a month ago. I don't have friends. And most of my relatives are involved in
scum business one way or another so I just stay away from them. Feels like a f***** trap. And because I see no point in my existence, just merely
surviving will put me back into the same old cycle of work (which I really hate) for buying food to live. And I am afraid of making any more friend as
I fear that getting involved with people will put me back into the cycle and when I will try again to break free they would be hurt. I don't know how
long I will hold on.

edit on 11-2-2012 by morpheusxxz because: (no reason given)