Losing Hope...

Thank You

Reading this years later gives a whole different feeling and perspective than it did back then. I didn't absorb it back then to its fullest, but reading it now it flowed through me like olive oil through a paper towel.

As if each of you were speaking to me directly or had even saved it on an audio disc for my listening in the future. Very cool, and I will remember to never underestimate the moment when your heart see's that someone else cares.

Even more perspective, those words typed back then feel as fresh and newborn to the heart that doesn't know or care when they were recorded as the mind does.

a reply to: Gumerk

There was some great advice in this thread for you. It has been years since you posted this. Has your outlook on life improved since then? I hope you have found some inner peace.

a reply to: Gumerk

I only now found this topic. I'm glad to see you're still kicking and that you seem to feel a bit better. At least, I sincerely hope that's the case. I have been there before.

This topic reminded me of this song. Take that for what you will.

It's something unattainable that you can't live without
And now the unexplainable has you riddled with doubt

Things begin
Things decay
And you've gotta find a way
To be okay

But if you want to spend the day
Wondering what it's all about
Go and knock yourself out

Why we're put
In this mess
Is anybody's guess
It might be a test

Or it might not be anything you need to worry about
But if you're still in doubt
Go and knock yourself out

I wish you whatever fulfillment and happiness means to you.

Peace.

originally posted by: zaiger
reply to post by smyleegrl

 

well he should just suck it up. This is ATS NOT live journal.

That's not the way life works when we're talking about someone reaching out for help.
If someone did this to you, and you said, stop whining suck it up....and that person killed his/herself .... you better bet you should shoulder some of that blame and feel bad.

If you don't learn from this, I hope someone doesn't treat one the way you just treated this man. I don't care what your intentions were (could have been good). This was wrong and a bad way to handle it. Same goes to Sean48. You're playing with fire.


Edit: I just noticed how old this thread was. Glad you're doing well, OP.

I thought of it.
People dying where they would go.
Almost scared me to believe we go elsewhere.
And wouldnt be able to escape it.

Endless torture. And pain.
It sucks. But you'll be okay. Just don't lose hope.

originally posted by: Gumerk
The title pretty much sums it up.

You still wants to stay alive.
I can bet.

Life can be hard, the best thing to do is try and push on and learn from the mistakes of the past, i know that life can be hard but what other option is there?