reply to post by GreenBicMan
Iv been on it all dude the docs tried everything, Rit and zoloft, dex and zol, aderol and zo, addies alone, rit alone, dex alone , rit + dex ( realy
mad eme fuqed up) addies + dex ( made me even moe #ed up) iv been on ever one and every combo the doc could think of best they finaly figured out was
20mg adderol xr time released over 12hrs. That actualy worked, i was focused but wasnt speedy and crazy. It is what i take now but i self regulate i
don't take it on weekends or days off at all, only to focus but it does kill my sociability alot, so i gota trade because i need that to sell cars ,
but if i dont take it i # up on numbers and financing things. Hard thing to juggle in my line of buinsess, i take the meds, im boring but focused, i
dont take them im likable and high energy personality that helps me make sales but i # the numbers up, and it costs when i do because i overlook alot
of things. hard trade off. What i do now, is i dont take them during the day, but when i have a buying customer at my desk i take a small dosage so
that in the 20-30 mins when it kicks in, im calm and focused enuff to not over look the numbers and disclose the customer on the need to know info.
Took me a while to figure out that balance, and it sucks i wish i could control why my brain thinks but i can't, its either full speed ahead without
em, or nere zombie but i dont miss the details. Theres no middle of the road, iv been on every drug mix for adhd meds there is and thats the only
combo that i can work with and live a semi normal life. Theres many many things i can do with numbers, computers, tech hardware, electronics, engines,
or anything to do with systematic things, but id give it all up just to be a regular guy that graduated high school that could spell and write things
properly while being focused. But its not the case with me or many adhd or add people, many of em have great ground breaking ideas all the time but
can only focus on that idea for mins if even tha, then forget and go on to something else that interests them. I always carry a notepad with me to
write ideas down even if i think there stupid then i still write them down so i dont forget, for instance i was taking a piss at my gay freind's
house who had some crazy wallpaper in his bathroom black and white with circles and squares. Well during that time i had an idea about loop quantum
gravity just looking at the wallpaper and wrote it down, im no genius but it was original thinking and sparked ideas for others researching that area
of theoretical physics. The best thing about adhd/add people is creative out of the box thinking, we dont conform , we are constantly outside the box
sometimes to the point that people think were crazy or we over think to the point that its even useless. Everyone's brain works differently, add and
adhd people seems to be very creative and smart, but only on things they LIKE or want to focus on, if they don't like it they don't care or try to
learn about it. I like math, physics, pattens and mechanics and i learn as much as i can about it almost to an obsessive point ie( hrs on Wikipedia,
play logic games, ect ect) If it comes to history and English or reading a book i don't like. I cant stand it, many kids are like this tho, not cuz
there lazy theirs not interest at all. Our schools need to teach kids that take interest in subjects they like. Our brains only retain things we are
interested in, if we dont like the subject the information is only stored long enough till we can forget it. The American education system is setup so
that we all learn the same subjects with slight alterations to be a productive member of socity. Tho the great minds of all time were free
thinking,outside the box, ADHD personality's that came up with ideas that moved mankind forward. It is a curse and a blessing, continued.....