posted on Jun, 1 2009 @ 02:28 AM
Yeah, I have it too, guys, and it's not all it's cracked up to be, trust me.
Karrotz, me and you are on the same page. I favor typing or writing anyday - I can facilitate my thoughts and get my points across better. But when
I'm talking, I stumble (and studder a little) over my words. My brain definetly works faster than my mouth could handle.
And I catch myself getting loud because I'm impulsive. It ties in because someone will say something funny, and I'll just lose it, and next thing
you know my friends are telling me (for the 3rd time) to keep it down because people are sleeping in the house.
I mean, I guess there are a few benefits, but the cons outweigh the benefits.
I can only concentrate on something (or even just DO something) better if I WANT to do it. If I don't want to do something, it's very hard. Then I
get down on myself for falling short.
I also think it has to do with motivation. That word, I really believe, has alot to do with this disorder.
I can play 4 instruments, record a whole band, and do all the mixing with my hands tied behind my back - and I never even went to school for any of
it. All because I really wanted to.
They say I am very smart. I see it, but I always sweep it under the rug and downplay it, like I don't deserve it or something...
But the more important things in life - like responsibilites - the things most of us hate to do, I have failed miserably. Because they're boring and
not interesting. I swear I am like a big kid sometimes...
Oh, and as far as the concentration is concerned, man... It's like that commercial for some kind of ADD medication (from a a few years ago). It's
like the TV just keeps changing channels, and I don't have the remote.
ADD has given me this distinct personality that either you love me or you hate me.
And I'm so damn sensitive. Also have a broad range of emotions. I'm not talking Bi-polar or anything like that, but it just seems like my (or our)
emotions can mix with emotions that can mix with others, resulting in like I said - a broad range. Anyone feel me on that one?
Guhhh... A curse it is, but hey. That's what makes me that guy, right?
Anyway, S&F. I've been hoping for a thread like this, although I don't think having this disorder makes me special.
But that's just me. Or is it?
Oh, and does anyone else (with ADD) have a problem with indecisiveness?
Edit to add: Actually, I just went back and read the rest of the posts, and we are striking similar in our ways, it's almost creepy. Hell, it IS
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