reply to post by theRiverGoddess
Thank you very much dear.

as are you, I have noticed.
Am I awake or just a drifter?
I have been shown over and over in the past ten years or so my every weakness. Every one of them until leaving me this raw thing. As I was just
putting together some really meaningful pieces to my own puzzle I had had my nose shoved in it again. I thought I had got to the point of my
conscience and was really finally getting rid of my ego.
I thought I could not be stripped of any more of myself...how much more raw can a person be left and survive? I guess until we leave these
meatsuits?
In looking at the me, the us we all have a payoff. Something we would do nearly anything for, something that drives us and gets us through it. Myself
I always thought it was enlightenment. Recently I found I was not quite stripped down enough. Still too many nuts and bolts left.
Part of me still wants to curl up into the fetal position and stroke and covet my regrets...they are mine! I am a Cancer born on a full moon on a
Monday long ago and we do love to stroke our pain.
My path number is a five (change) so I must always leave each piece of pain in my wake and try not to pick it up and hold it again. I then temper
myself once again and try to laugh for it is all just my illusion.
[edit on 15-2-2009 by LoneGunMan]