reply to post by Good Wolf
Well I think you should try to focus on the experience of life it self.
Live and do and be in the moment for a while. I believe "god" lives in everything
and that everything is connected in a way that words cannot justify.
After a while you may find great peace in the moment and even greater excitement
in the unknown, unsure and unexplainable...
Another thing you my try to do is learn of other religions and philosophies.
There are two books I have read that gave me great insight, comfort and questions.
CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD (not a christian book ) in which the author feels he is talking to god as you have expressed.
I believe this book goes past any dogmatic restraints and deals with spiritual identity crisis'...
I give this book




( I know I only have two but...)
In fact I read this book in one night and as I left for work the next morning book two was sitting in my drive way??? Turns out a friend of mine came
to see my roomy
and the SECOND book fell out of his car??? Anyways it was a very powerful experience for me...
SECOND book is Budha by CHOPRA -- this is a partially fictional/"factual book which also deals with spiritual identity...
Another good thing to look into is eastern philosophies/ religions...
They tend to have a lot less DOGMA and a lot more mental/intellectual avenues.
I myself have had the worst two years of my life thus far. I have been taking care of a terminally ill grandmother, father and badly injured
mother.
All three of them by myself, diapers. feeding, shots and their every need...
However I have no seen life slowly turn to death and I assure you there is a better place... The process of dying my be frightening but always
remember that it appears
that all matter came from the same place and the same. DO not fear death, I no longer do.I only fear the fear I will feel when I will be in the dying
process.
Your matter will live forever...
Make your life count!