Ok Im back ..Sdraw
I thought about really hard and I prayed about that question for some answer that may help you understand about the faith issue .
Here is all I could come up with (at least in my mind and with my experiences)
He does not need to test you and in fact I dont believe he does ......I believe that is us who tests him ..we say we believe but saying something and
really believing it as true is sometimes not so cut and dried
I didnt have to prove anything to God .(because he knew my heart and he knows what I am thinking ) .....he needed to prove stuff to me so that when
this day came (right here and now telling people about why I believe what I believe and discussing my experiences with people) I can now say 100 %
certain that I BELIEVE and I have FAITH that God will do as he says he will do and that I can trust him with my heart without any sort of proof ..
Although those times I TESTED him ....And said SHOW ME YOUR REAL ..that was when I got my proof....I am no longer needing anything more for any sort
of proof now ...nadda ....
I could give you an example .
Lets say you have a friend and you say you trust him and you believe him at his word.The only reason why you do is because he showed himself to be
trustworthy didnt he ?When you tested him ...he proved he could be trusted by the deeds he has done to show you he was in fact trustworthy.
The same goes with faith .
I believed but didnt really believe in my heart ...I was like alot of people I came to him the first time just because I was afraid ...it wasnt until
wayyy later after going through alot ..that I realized I never really believed like I said I did ..and surely God knew that too ....so he waited till
I tested him (we all tempt the Lord our God dont we ?) and he got me through each and every thing I went through ..and everytime he gave me so many
chances to not have to learn things the hard way ...I WAS SO STUBBORN ...
And let me tell you ..I have tried suicide several times ..taking at least 17 pills at once (very powerful tranqs) and he would not let me die my body
went into a quivering state and that kept me awake ..it got so bad I had to crawl out of bed and puke ..And I didnt even go to a hospital ..(I do not
know how I lived through that at all) .He said sorry but its really not that simple ..your not just gonna get outta here ..
That is just one itty bitty time I can tell you about ..
I cannot believe I am here today ..And NO ONE ELSE could have done all that God has done for me ...And no other god ..or man ...could have shown
himself to be as real as God did for me ......and it took like 25 years of my life to stop fighting with God ....it seems to stupid now to me ..so
unecessary (all that I did to try and run from him and life and all the stupid ways I tempted God ) ......
Faith is alot like you trusting a friend ..you say you trust people but when it comes down to it you have in the back of your mind that you may not
really trust them at all ...And until that person shows how much he can be trusted .You really cant say that you trust them completely ..
Sorry that is the best I can do ...hope it helped.


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