it's hard for me to tell honestly

i have always felt a deep connection with other people, being able to tell what they are feeling/thinking. always been able to manipulate people ( i know it sounds bad ) to do things i wanted done. not so much convincing them to do it, but being able to set things up knowing what the outcome would be.

there are LARGE parts of my childhood that i just can't seem to remember, that i should remember. there has been times that i would wake up in the morning and notice that i had blood on my blanket or pillow, with no sign of injury to myself, or blood on me at all.

i have always felt like i was supposed to be part of something important, and that no matter where i am. it's not where i am meant to be, i dunno it's hard to explain, i just guess i have always felt out of place. no matter where i am, another weird thing i have been told by more than one person is that i have a pretty commanding/intimidating presence, and have also been told on multiple occasions that i have a 'powerful name' (not totally sure what was meant by that, but i think it's interesting.)

at a young age i always showed more intelligence and understanding of concepts like physics (not so much a book educated, know every equation kind of sense, but more of a carnal understanding on the subject.)

Riotact: I understand completely. I also think that you have to experience the feeling/emotion of what you are trying to accomplish as well. That one ounce of doubt sends mixed vibrations to the universe causing your wants to become unfulfilled.

I've talked to many people about being the center of things (I think it's mentioned in this thread). Some don't want to think it because it appears as arrogance but I believe the truth is simply that. But there are people who "have everything revolving around them". It's most likely that you are an energy center so no need to dismiss those feelings imo.

AceWombat/Cosmicstorm: Have either of you heard about the five new chakra's being placed into our bodies? I've read about it, people have different names for them but supposedly they are going into place to make us spiritually complete (13 chakras with the last one being Christ Consciousness/The I Am chakra).

Don't take me as saying this is proof but one of the chakra's is called The Well of Dreams. It's being/has been inserted into the back of our heads, actually about two inches down from where the head meets the neck. (Have you had neckpain lately? I know a lot of people who have including myself.) The Well of Dreams is a chakra that serves to help you remember your dreams more clearly, help you relate them to your life, but most importantly help you intertwine the conscious and the subconscious to become unified.

In regards to the pictures you see with your eyes closed, this has also been happening to me for six months. I can see people, events, locations, just about anything. I believe this to be related to our psychic abilities. I try and make cognitive sense out of these pictures but it doesn't work and I think I should simply be following intuition.

I can also see these pictures when I open my eyes. The night of the lunar eclipse in March, I was actually able to see these pictures awake for 20 minutes right before the eclipse happened.

All in all, I believe this to be the true way we are intend to exist. The more we are calm and welcome these foriegn events, the more they will occur and the more we will understand from it.

Peace

Very brave post IMO.

I can not say I`m psychic...although I do have moments that spook people from time to time.

I do not think I`ve been abducted....but, I remember we were haunted as a family by something evil (really), and we were visited by an orb or two.....I never saw the orbs myself, my farther did.

I am married but, we`ve been together 20 years before we tied the knot. Its my understanding that we did not do this earlier because we felt too individualistic.....after 20 years we learn`t how to trust and allow space, live life as individuals wile together........quite an odd marriage really but, were happy.

Apparently, my mother tells me I never cried as a baby.....I seemed to make up for it later though, as I discovered empathy.

Ok, I seem to be giving a life history here, so I`ll end by asking "why am I here".

Out of all the things I could be doing here on the net, I find myself here.
I feel strangely drawn here as if I`m seeking my own.
Can anyone remember the film close encounters were, Richard Dreyfuss started to make things out of mashed potatoes?.....thats kind of how I feel.........searching for something thats driving me crazy.

I do not believe we are all here by chance, something lead you here.
Maybe, its explainable through nuts and bolts (Psychiatry, chance mathematics or whatever) but, I feel its more spiritual.

Keep searching.....your not alone.

Thanks universal light, thanks riotact...

Its so much more reassuring to know that there are others going through it, when i first started this thread, it had not long begun happening, but now its ongoing and everyday, so just in that short time these experiences have heightened...
...riotact, i didnt feel any vibrations, but i do get this very heavy pressure feeling in my temples, not a headache just like someone is pressing both sides, and also ringing in the ears... which recently ive noticed alot more.... obviously these things could just be medical, but its just strange how they're happening now with the other occurances...

I do believe the answers are within, iv always believed that, i just feel a bit out of my depth at the moment... but your posts make things alot clearer so thanks again guys..

........And the pressure in the temples and ringing in the ear has only been the last 6 weeks or so, i do try putting off going doctors as they have proven to be useless, in my case anyway.... seems whatever you have, they want to put you on anti-depressants

I've had the temple pressure issue. Granted, I have high blood pressure at the moment though lol.

Who places these 'Chakras' in our neck?(Yes I have been having neck pain,primarly on my left side)

Cosmicstorm,what you said about the classroom is stunning as that is exactly what the majority of my dreams were.(I haven't had any in a while)I would be nauseated the next morning and throw up.(I mentioned someone said it was gravity sickness,I don't know)As I said I have the headaches,but on one concentrated spot on one of my temples.It is a sharp,pressure-like pain.The pictures flashing in front of you while sleeping and knowing what they mean(somehow you know)and waking up and having no clue what they meant is happening to me as well.Lately like I have said my perception of things in the world has changed somehow,like yesterday for example I suddenly got a very strong empathy for all living things,almost to the point of crying just by looking at people,animals,or anything living.This is all very odd(dare I say good) indeed.



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