posted on Feb, 5 2008 @ 01:35 PM
That's exactly why I post too; that if one single word I say could make a difference when I can't physically, that is all that I need to know. I
believe there are liars and frauds on this board, and that is why I remain skeptical of some but offer advice nonetheless, but to those who request
help from the off, I can overlook those parts that don't add up, to see that they just need someone to talk to, and if I can be that someone, then
what difference is to me to spend my time talking? People all over the world visit chatrooms to talk to others, mostly for their own agenda, but if
someone wants to talk to me, then I will listen - the only agenda I have is to help a fellow human who is troubled. People spend hours on the phone,
but who listens to those who don't have the courage to call someone else?
I live in constant pain from an illness. It's not my fault, its just what I have and there is and never will be a cure. I can't say I've had a
good life, but I'm happy with what I have and you either learn to live with and respect others, or you close yourself off. If there are others who
have problems, then I will listen to them and offer advice, be it just listening, actual advice, or if I can't help, suggest someone who perhaps can.
Listening is the first step - too many people are on here for answers, too many people want and not give, I'm glad that a lot of you in this thread
have at least tried to listen or have given help. Shame on you that have taken that help as being 'brainwashed by Christians' or whatever.
I don't care if any of the story is true or false, the OP asked for help, and so if you still need someone to talk to, then I'll listen. I can't
pretend that I know how you feel if the story is true and I believe you enough that it doesn't matter, but I have had to put up with constant pain
since I was 11, doctors gave up on me when I was born (very premature) but I lived and I'm still happy with what I do have and what I can do. I
won't try and convert you, but I am a Christian, but I have been a LOT worse in my lifetime, lets just say the occult and leave it at that and I
definitely believe in daemons. I've had my share of loving and hating God, but I won't make you decide, that is your journey not mine, but I will
listen.
I will say that you should definitely talk to a medical professional about your depression (cutting is also a part of it), and while I don't take
anything for depression now, I have and it doesn't make you any less of a person, I believe in the 'chemical imbalance' theory and it helps, but
you must try and let it work, and you must first stop thinking that no one can help you and want to seek help. It also won't change overnight, but I
think it will help, however I do believe in the physical existance of daemons too, but I too believe we give them their power - you have to be strong
yourself, you have to say no one too many times before they give up. They constantly see you give up every time you let them play their games.
Seek someone in real life, but in the mean time, I as will others, will be here to talk to, and I'm still sane and happy, so you know that eventually
it does all turn out OK in the end, just don't give up before your time is up, because then, they've won and you can't talk to God from the grave.