New one. maybe i got weird eh its up to you.

-Aza

Sometime

When the time still turns.
Looking for someone there.
Candle it so slowly burns
Yes I really do care.

Sometimes I feel that it’s only me
Is this how it is suppose to be?
Searching for something, I’ve never really found.
Reaching for something off the ground

Can’t you hear the cry in the night?
Do you still feel alright?
Feel it again… once more.
Lead this fear out your door.

Sometimes I feel that it’s only me
Is this how it is suppose to be?
Searching for something, I’ve never really found.
Reaching for something off the ground

It seems that I’ve found what I needed
Found what I’ve always craved.
Never more will I be conceited.
This is the path that I pave.

Sometimes I feel that only us
Is this who I am suppose to trust?
Searching for something, we’ve never really found.
Reaching for something off the ground

2005 Jace

New one again. Sort of a dark undertone but this definately has another meaning. Hope you enjoy

-Aza

To Nowhere

Though you see that’s its right in front of you
An open door, somewhere different and new.
Hold me close, because I don’t want to stay
Leave this pain for just another day.

I close my eyes, having them open again
This is the fruits of our sin.
The longer that I stare
The further I see down our road to Nowhere.

This pain, how it eats us so
No place to hide, just Nowhere to go.
So your hand I hold it tight
Ready to face this darkest Night

I close my eyes, having them open again
This is the fruits of our sin.
The longer that I stare
The further I see down our road to Nowhere.

Walk alone, though be not afraid
Though I’m gone, you’ll still find your way
When you there, there no reason to be scared
On your path to Nowhere

Close your eyes, having them open again
This is the fruits of our sin.
The longer that you stare
The further you see down the road to Nowhere.

2005 Jace

It so hot here that i can barely think let alone function. So i will post an older poem that I haven't posted yet. It dark so yeah ..my writing style changes quite a bit

i hope you enjoy a darker part of my life

-Aza

Taste it

My life it’s going my way
Nothings gonna stop this day
Been coming around sooner or then
Just one more second til you’re my friend

Can you taste this?
The taste of blood sweat and spit
Right now this very second this very time
You will be here, you will be mine.

I'll fight my way to the top
Smacking people watching their heads go pop
Yeah it’s wrong but do I care? No
No ones gonna tell me how to go
What to do and how to be
That # just ain't me

Can you taste this?
The taste of blood sweat and spit
Right now this very second this very time
You will be here, you will be mine.

This time it will be right
I ain't got time to stop, not gonna give up the fight
It’s not usual to find someone like you
That makes me do all the crazy things I do

Can you taste this?
The taste of blood, sweat, and spit
Right now this very second this very time
You will be here, you will be mine

1998 Jace

Ok, Darkish I guess, more of a song I wrote, but what is a song but a poem with instruments? It is basically a musician who slowly goes insane, as you will see as you read.

I must have lost my mind, lost my sanity
Lost all that was important to me
Now what do I see?
Oh my god, they came for my life
I must fight, I must struggle, get myself out of here
Now, Now, Now.....

I was famous, everyone loved me
I was everything I ever wanted to be
But as I played for the crowd
The cheers constant and loud
I kept feeling this voice in my head
Something that wanted me dead

I must have lost my mind, lost my sanity
Lost something that was important to me
Now what can we see
Oh my god, they came for my mind
I must fight, we must struggle, get myself out here
Now, Now, Now.....

I can't believe what has begun
I can barely hear it as we sung
But now the show is over, the tour is gone
The voice ever louder, the screams become long
Why is this happening to me
Why is it that I am the only one who can see
What this voice has done

We must have lost my mind, lost my sanity
Lost something that was never important to me
Now what can we see
Oh my god, they came for our mind
We must fight, we must struggle, get ourselves out of here
Now, Now, Now.....

The room is cold
I have become old
They say my mind is lost
And that no matter the cost
I will never be me
We will always be
Now that all is past
Lets see how long I last

We must of lost our minds, lost our insanity
Lost nothing you see
But what is it that we see?
To hell with god, they can have our mind
We will not fight, we will not struggle, we will stay here
Forever, Forever, Forever

My family buries me today
I don't care, I have nothing to say
I am at peace, I now have my way
I am glad I am dead
The voices have finally left my head
But what is this that I see
How can this be
WHo is that woman, who is that man
Why is the light so bright
I must be in heaven, right
But he is a doctor, and there are no clouds
I cry out loud, but it is not my voice
But it is not any voice ever heard before

I lost my mind, I lost my sanity
I lost everything that was important to me
I lost the fight, I can no longer struggle
I do not wish to get out of here
I am lost

Here you go Ma'am
Here you go Sir
What will you name him
Your beautiful baby boy......

Interesting song there James. Sort of a life and death song. I wrote a poem that kinda deal with the same thing but more into something lost and wanting revenge for it

Enjoy

-Aza

Upheld

Looking out the window, of an early morn.
Beams of reds, yellows, and golds being born.
Watching the leaves drift, along the dusty way
Walking out of the darkness into another day

Walking down a twisted road, with anger by my side.
A dark look in my eyes, and nowhere to hide.
This thing deep in my mind, drilling in my soul.
Telling me of atrocities not meant to behold.

Never touch something, of that which you do not hold.
We were meant to live forever, meant to grow old.
Suffering you will do, for all that you have stole.
Upheld in the memory, of her face in the cold.

Red hands covered in sins of the untold.
Wash them off with purer thoughts, though the nights are still cold.
Lay down in my grave, which I have dug.
I never asked for forgiveness, I want that which I loved.

Never touch something, of that which you do not hold.
We were meant to live forever, meant to grow old.
Suffering you will do, for all that you have stole.
Upheld in the memory, of her face in the cold.

2005 Jace

another for the day. I wrote this from the aspect of someone truly misfortunate that has no self worth or emotion.

-Aza

Hidden

Lost in the mind, lost in the sound.
Eyes, they fail my sight.
My feet never touch the ground.
I can’t look at anything, all I see is night.

Lost in myself, Lost to no one
Never seen the light of day, never felt the sun.
I cannot feel my breath; it feels like it’s gone.
Never will I ever sing, I have never heard a song.

Hidden in my life, hidden in my mind
Never letting out of it, Nowhere will you find
The being that lived in here is now away.
Never felt the evening dusk, or the break of day.

Leave me alone, I will fade from that which you haven seen
Nowhere is where I will rest, I might as well never been

2005 Jace

Yeah i know i been slacking. I had to deal with cable connection going haywire. seem my work pc doesn't like the website anymore so I have been AWOL for a few days. But i bring you a new poem. It feltdiferent as i think there are a few different styles in there.

-Aza

Choking

Though I can not see it, I can feel it around my throat
Forcing me to cough, to hack to choke.
Infecting me with all the useless lies.
Killing me, while eating me inside.

This useless form right in front of your eyes
Needs to cough and spit and choke, just to feel alive
Never will I be there in your dreams
Writhing in my own desire, of what I really mean.

Leave me now, save yourself
I don’t want anyone, to experience my hell.
Rather then both us suffer, I’ll do it all myself.

Walk away from here, you are too dear
To leave in this vile, mess
The only thing I wish, although they went amiss
My feelings for you were too strong for me to express.

So go now and never look back.
I will still be, living here, suffering in this crack

2005 Jace

Been gone for a bit but I've written something new. Too many things going on make it harder to write new ones. hopefully this will all die down soon.

-Aza

Testing

Feeling a bit unnerved, something that I heard
Tension is building, cooking my brain.
This silence is killing me and driving me insane.

Since when have I been everything to you?
Giving all I have to give, wishing it wasn’t true.
Preying for that bit of hope, in silent prayer.
Searching for you at last, finding you not there.

Never before have I had to testify
I’ve bleeded, died, and lied.
Never have I been at my best
I’m just a failure, of your little test.

Everything you know, or should have known.
Dissolved in this rant, coming from the unknown.
It is there, that I lie.
Waiting for this will to end, this tragic horror to die.
And I’ve known for some time.
These feeling you’ve had were never mine.

Never before have I had to testify
I’ve bleeded, died, and lied.
Never have I been at my best
I’m just a failure, of your little test.

So it ends, on this day
Is there nothing for us to do or say?
I don’t want to be there.
Standing in this, forsaken land of Nowhere.


2005 Jace



[edit on 8-8-2005 by Azathoth]

Azathoth-

Your poems are excellent. I was wondering if you would mind if others contributed their own humble offerings to your thread? I thought it best to ask before I posted anything.

No i don't have a problem with anyone contributing to the thread. I just don't seem to have the time to do its as much as i did. But here is something new.

-Aza

Torn

Shunned by this place, I am broken and torn
Never felt a moment, where I was alive.
Time though has had its way, since I have been born
Tearing what I wanted away, without a goodbye

Can not feel what is inside of me.
Can not feel what it is to be free.
I do not feel this is supposed to be!
Never again will I get to see
Unto thee

Broken and torn, I walk away from you all
This shatter form I have was nice before the fall.
Still bent on proving you wrong, of what you did to me
Cling to all that I hold still, barely meant to be.

Can not feel what is inside of me.
Can not feel what it is to be free.
I do not feel this is supposed to be!
Never again will I get to see
Unto thee

Just one thought crossed my mind of something I should say.
How just once I looked at you, not wanting to turn away.
Those eyes they look right through me, at what I’ve become.
I can never go back, what was said is done.

Can not feel what is inside of me.
Can not feel what it is to be free.
I do not feel I am supposed to be!
Never again will I get to see
Unto thee

2005 Jace

Yeah new poems again. I wanted to appease some of the romantics here so i wrote a tame poem with dark undertones. See now we all just get along.

-Aza

Sinking

When I look at you, there is nothing I can’t do
The fire in your eyes, feeding my desire
But as it stands today, making me feel this way.
I’m slowly drifting away, ready to expire.

When I think of all I knew, something missed about you.
I never thought that I’d be sinking as you walked away.
Just once more, I‘d like to reach.
The love inside you that helps me keep
Afloat against the sinking of my heart
I don’t want to ever be apart.

Your touch, it is so smooth.
Testing me and forcing me to move.
To hold you deep within my love
Holding you tight, all day and night
Never letting you go
Oh how I need you so

When I think of all I knew, something missed about you.
I never thought that I’d be sinking as you walked away.
Just once more, I‘d like to reach.
The love inside you that helps me keep
Afloat against the sinking of my heart
I don’t want to ever be apart.

2005 Jace

New poem for you all. If you try to sing it towards unforgiven 2 you will see a very similar sound to it. Must of ben that dang song playing all day long.

-Aza


Torment

What is this that makes me see?
Searching for something, wanting to be.
Behind this door, there is nothing for you
Dark secrets still, there are lights shining through.

Torn by war, torn by hate
Left from the world, segregated
I can see the torment in you
Torn by pain, torn by sorrow
You will lead and they will follow
Now take this key, you know what you must do.

Walk away now, take your burden away.
Is it getting darker here?
Or has the night just turned to day?
Open the door now, so that I might walk through
This pain it eats me inside, gnawing through me to you.

Step inside, walk away
Never stop in the light of day
This torment burns, as I look for you
Cold and dark, chilled as grave
Start to run and look away
This pain inside, it wishes to be loosed.

Torn by war, torn by hate
Left from the world, segregated
I can see the torment in you
Torn by pain, torn by sorrow
You will lead and they will follow
Now take this key, you know what you must do.

2005 Jace

I enjoy reading your poems, Azathoth.
Here's one which fits the darkness...

Brooding Baby

Bleeding drops of suicidal verbosity
splatter generously throughout the dark poetry of Death.
I've never seen such constant verocity
so bent on stemming fine youths' breath.

It's not that I've shunned that hopeless cold road-
hanging my sorrowed head in teary dread,
fearing what horrors tomorrows trials could bode-
thinking for certain I'd be better off dead.

But I withheld that bloodspraying stroke
and left those narcotics in the medicine cabinet
getting behind me the dire urge to croak
deciding rather meekly on my future to bet.

Now I'm glad to be sitting here plinking
these fey lines on a keyboard about such a bother.
But, as I write these lines, it got me thinking
about the first time I really, really hated my father.

I forget what brought such hate to bear
but, surely, it was some small thing merely-
something silly about why he couldn't care
to buy whatever toy I wanted so dearly.

"I'll show him! I'll climb that high limb...
I'll make him sorry he never gave in!
I'll kill myself!!...that'll teach him!
He'll lose all hope of what might have been!"

New poem. Its a bit longer then most. Must of gone off on a tangent or something. This poem has a bit of both in it sadness and happiness. Well until the end of course.

-Aza

Stepping into the Void

Can you feel this, this darkness all around?
This feeling of hopelessness, no one that can be found.
Hold my hand tight, as we walk down this dark isle.
Pain and misery, has taken our smiles.

Where are we, can you hear?
Lost in ourselves, no one is near.
Is it so dark that we cannot find you?
Trapped and torn, we’ll never be.
We are the ones that came to see.
Is this the place where all your dreams come true?

Still we stand in the shade, something unknown to us that’s made
I hear the screams of voices long since gone.
Turn to you with a sound, come to find out your not around.
What have we done, how could we go so wrong?

Where am I, can you hear?
Lost in myself, no one is near.
Is it so dark that I cannot find you?
Trapped and torn, I’ll never be.
I am the one that came to see.
Is this the place where all your dreams come true?

Lost in the dark, no I’ll never give.
My heart is to strong with will to live.
I search for her; I will not leave her behind.
Dark as shade, cold as night
I stand alone, my will to fight
I reach for her, this is not her time!

Where are we, can you hear?
Lost in ourselves, no one is near.
Is it so dark that we cannot find you?
Trapped and torn, we’ll never be.
We are the ones that came to see.
Is this the place where all your dreams come true?

I found her here, she was not far.
Though my soul is lost to her.
What am I, do I even really live?
Skin so cold, eyes ice blue.
Never thought I’d lose to you.
There is nothing left, I have nothing left to give.

Lost in myself, no one is near.
Is it so dark that I cannot find you?
Trapped and torn, I’ll never be.
I am the one that came to see.
Is this the place where all your dreams come true?

2005 Jace

New poem. I kinda of got a request from Kitsunegari to make one about rain. i've never really tried to do a themed poem about something specific so please bear with me.

-Aza

Dark Days

Sounding aside, your touch is what I crave
Softly caressing my skin, you tease and play
Dancing in front of me, what can I say?
I’ve loved you ever since that day.

Holding me tight, in your embrace
My head is starting to rush, my heart starting to race
Can this be love, of just your face?
Will you stay with me, in this place?

As the wind rolls on, you twist and turn away
I grab your hand, wanting you to stay.
Its slips right through, your eyes meeting mine wanting to say
How you wish you could, you long to stay

Holding me tight, in your embrace
My head is starting to rush, my heart starting to race
Can this be love, of just your face?
Will you stay with me, in this place?

So now she goes, with the coming light
But I think of her coming tonight
And then we will laugh and we will play
Til the dawn of the coming day.

2005 Jace

Yep its that time again. Time to put in something that really isn't dark and forboding. This is for all the romantics out there.




-Aza

Touch

I can feel your touch, and hear your sigh
Hear your heart beating, as I look in your eyes
Don’t worry, you’ll see.
Just what it is like when you’re here with me.

Just a touch, not so rough.
You can tell me when you’ve had enough.
Don’t fear me so.
If you feel the need, I will let you go.

Lay down, on the ground.
No need to worry there is nobody around.
Your hand, holding mine
I want to stay like this till the end of time

Just a touch, you’ll see.
We are so close, so meant to be.
Don’t worry about it so.
If you feel the need, I will let you go.

2005 Jace

me too. me too. check it out..


silent type, still the center of attention
smiling like, shell never need another friend in
the world been the girl that seen it all
since the fall... of the roman empire, VAMPIRE
istically, puckered lips for he.
nick named the pain sweet misery
sad to say you have to go?>>>
next day noticed snow..
white things falling, mind state stalling,
why do cordial questions always come off as appalling?
I* dont* know... her anymore, never did, and thats why we think seperate.
-its what you get,
in the exchange of a liar and a hypocrite
she won i quit.

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tried to paint the ill landscape, wouldnt stop raining.
decided keep the mixing pallette as the painting.
but saving face, cus he cut himself shaving
ranting and raving never stopped the skin from hanging
on the razor, saved it for later, call a back up layer...
.. if he doesnt die of blood loss, someone say a prayer..
atleast pretend they care, so when he pass he remember them
...and finally catch a glare..
of the sun, all please hush, as it peeks through the clouds..
not done with his brush, and now hes having doubts...
hell finish his masterpiece before he leaves this life..
blood barely eeking out next time use a knife..
or rope, an axe, a gun or guillateen
death sounds like a real good trip and right now hes a feign.
can see the pearly gates, or deleted was the scene?
can see dimlit tunnels if it wasnt all a dream...

Todays new flavor. I took it a different direction, which I feel is a good thing as I like to be versatile. So here you go


-ps. BTW good poems for those that have decided to contribute to the thread. Its always good to express yourself in a non violent method

-Aza

Finding Sky (lost in my eyes)

Look up in the darkness, there is a light ahead
Straining to find the truth in all this death.
Although I thought I could really see
I was wrong; I only want to be free.

Searching, looking for the lost.
Rambling through the unforgotten.
Will we ever really see, what was meant to be?
Get me out this liquid chaos.
Help me up from unbegotten.
Where the sky meets the light, darkness lost in the night.

Through the wind, we drift and dream.
Of the things, that will come to be.
Will you still want or need me?
There is only so much to see.

Drifting away on thoughts of streams.
Lapping at the stuff of dreams.
Do you really want to know what it means?
It’s never really what it seems.

Searching, looking for the lost.
Rambling through the unforgotten.
Will we ever really see, what was meant to be?
Get me out this liquid chaos.
Help me up from unbegotten.
Where the sky meets the light, darkness lost in the night.

2005 Jace

sorry for being a sloth in my work. I got caught up in another venture. Here is something new to browse.

-Aza


Torn (again)

Hold this tight, the day has gone into night.
This hate and rage, like a demon in a cage.
Does suffering make it right?
Release the pain you hold so dear.
Let loose the hate you’ve kept inside
What else have you to fear?
So there is nowhere to hide.

Dragged and dropped, you are torn
Unleash the real you, that has been born
Suffered and pained, you live again
So that you might show the way

See right now, deep in your eyes.
The pain it sleeps, so deep inside
Let it go, along with your sorrow.
You’ll be reborn when comes the morrow.

Dragged and dropped, you are torn
Unleash the real you, that has been born
Suffered and pained, you live again
So that you might show the way

You’re torn again between dark and light.
The feeling to run, the feeling to fight
So take our help and so it shall be.
Now release yourself and become free.
Walk away from the hate and misery!

2005 Jace

Sorry its been a bit since i last posted a new poem. Been thinking about some things and spending more time with my family but i got a new one for you all

-Aza

Undone

Look at me now, what have I done?
Disappeared and became undone.
Left you there to worry, of what’s to come.
In your little world under the sun.

My face my hands, these are not mine
My spirit, my soul has left the vine
My feet my legs, they can not walk.
There was a line I should’ve never crossed

Now what you see, is not really me.
I never was nor was meant to be.
Trust your eyes, what do you see?
The beast in your mind is the real me.

My hair my eyes, these are not me
My spirit, my soul has gone to be free
My mouth my teeth, Oh they grind
Never should I have crossed the line.

2005 Jace