Suffering

Can you see this me?
Have you felt what it can be?
Suffering wholly onto thee
Let this pain set me free

I am the one that sets the fire
Burning fast hot with desire
Wreck my walls tear me down
Let this suffering be unto thou

Toss my life away for another day
Suffering is my way. Can’t you see?
This fire burning everything. its me
I can't seem to find another way

I am the one that’s burning in your fears
Thirsty I am...feeds on your tears
Let it be done I am only one
Can you see the suffering on me?

Next time I won't be hurt
Let pain feed on my dirt
Run away from all my pain
Into the storming rain

The one that dies away
Suffering is on me today
This shell I am can be broken
This is my last token

What I am ...meant to be
Never whole...never free
Full of sin...full of pain
Suffering in the rain


1998 Silverpillz

Molded

Time so it goes shambling around
Dragging its feet on timeless ground
Silvery soft with shiny skin
So warm and welcome lets you in

It’s made for you
Cast into its mold
This special key
Makes your dreams unfold

Softly you say to me to bring you in
Deliver the powers of be to you within
And you take the key and unlock your mind
All the horror…all the pain left behind

It’s made for you
Cast into its mold
This special key
Makes your dreams unfold

Its molded …just for you
It’s cold and steers you true

Cast away your fears and pain
Overflowing with the red rain
Drop down next to me
Let me show you how to be


It’s made for you
Cast into its mold
This special key
Makes your dreams unfold


1998 Silverpillz

Never giving

See this heart of mine
It’s blackened by time
So much hurt ...pain inside
Why should I trust you in spite?

No I won't ever give this away
It’s my hate...it’s my pain
It’s what I am today

Try me now...see my life
Misery tenfold every night
Cannot be taken in
Leave me with my own sin

No I won't ever give this away
It’s my hate...it’s my pain
It’s what I am today

I hate what I am
Why can't I change?
Will I never stop?
This same thing?

No I won't ever give this away
It’s my hate...it’s my pain
It’s what I am today


1998 Silverpillz

Here is a dark one i wrote for a very dear friend of mine. She commited suicide a long time ago and many of her friends felt the effects. I wrote this poem as a trbute for others to grow stronger. And that in the end, we will all be together eventually. I hope you enjoy it.

-Aza

Pained

It was so long ago that my love went away
It seems like an eternity and a day
She left me there alone to watch her that day
As she cut the knife into her wrist I cried and prayed

Oh please don’t take her
Oh please don’t take her
Don’t pain my life

She fell in a scarlet pool her eyes to the sky
I trembled as I ran to her wondering oh why
Her life was good her parents should have watched her more closely
But now it’s done and now she’s gone but how can it be?

Oh please don’t take her
Oh please don’t take her
Don’t take my love

I’ve listened at night and heard her voice crying in the rain
Why did you leave me...go and not come join my pain?
But it was so long ago when she just left me to live on
So I drag the razor along my wrist and my heart is done

Oh don’t take her
Oh don’t take her
Don’t take my love
She’s up above

1998 Jace

[edit on 16-11-2006 by Azathoth]

wow is all I can really say at this time, Your "dark" poems portray alot of emotions and feelings. I want to say I feel your pain, but I know I can't really do that. Keep writing, we all have our vices and outlets and this outlet of yours is quite prolific.

(guess wow, wasn't all I had to say )

[edit on 7-6-2005 by worldwatcher]

This poem is more cheerer but falls under the darkerside. Enjoy


-Aza


Shadows

There in the shadows i see her
still there since full circle
Can she see me?
Is this what is suppose to be

Like a night of bliss
Just one last kiss
Nights shadows cloaking me
She'll make me free

Now i walk away and see her move
Semiconcious daydream in that room
Is it a dream or for something to strife
Blissful wrappings of darkness in his life

Today i walked all alone
Trapped in myself nowhere known
She came again to drag me out
She is my savior without a doubt

One night of bliss
Just one last kiss
Nights shadows cloaking me
Her touch could set me free


1998 Silverpillz/ Jace

Yep its the third one of the day...this is the romantic one..well for a dark poem.


-Aza

Offering

I send this to you
An offering for what you do
Keep it well and hold it dear
May this feeling bring you near

Offering to you
What will you do?
Will you take all that I give?
Dying so that you might live

Can you feel it near?
Yes it’s the time again my dear
Toss away all your cares
Its you that I come to for repairs

Offering to you
What will you do?
Will you take all that I give?
Dying so that you might live

See there now isn't it good to give?
Letting the heart free to live
So come to you again
Letting me be the end of pain

Offering to you
What will you do?
Will you take all that I give?
Dying so that you might live

1997 Jace / Silverpillz

well done your poems are looking really good and i look forward to more,

Keep up the good work

a romantic poem again

-Aza

Nights Kiss

Swiftly seeping down my spine
Let me all in one time
Drink heavily of the flavor
Who will be your only savior?

Glowing softly ‘til this nigh
When does it stop?
Swept up into her arms
Hoping she’ll never drop

Oh the night’s gonna kiss your soul
The nights going to help you keep control
This night…forever

Shaking still from the touch next to my skin
Never wanting her to stop being within
Letting her touch drive me insane
Who will be left with my pain?

Oh the night’s gonna kiss your soul
The night’s going to help you keep control
This night…forever

All I want all I need…she gives to me
The feel of her wanting me to be
And then she’s gone again left without a bye
I shall live another day to see her nigh

Oh the night’s gonna kiss you right in your soul
The night’s going to help you keep control
This night…forever

1998 jace /silverpillz

This was a very first of mine. I wrote this one in the prospective of a person thats was burned most of his life and died. The person that caused the grief of many people (some of which aren't living, also dies) The ultimate suffering for someone who cares about nothing but himself is to be treated like they are worthless. Again this is some of my early work and teenage fury coming out here.

-Aza

Godless

Deep inside of you
All the things you do coming down
Yeah all the way down
Falling down to my world
You will hit the ground
Not another sound…
Rise up you pathetic thing and get off your face
You have fallen down …fallen down from grace
Now stand in line for you have no name
Down here sucker we’re all the same

Where are they now? …Will they help you somehow?
It’s not happening…just close your eyes
And then maybe the horrors will die

So where do you think your going? Get back in line!
Your puny little gods can’t save you this time.
Wait for it, the fun is about to start
As these demons rip your soul apart
What did you think it would be a bunch of angels floating around?
I’m sorry man…But you don’t belong in that part of town
You see you were rotten really bad... so they say
You raped you slaughtered you pillaged in a way
Exploiting everything you could get in your hands and turning it to cash
But that won’t save you while we’re frying your ___

Where are they now? … Will they help you somehow?
It’s not happening…just close your eyes
And then maybe the horrors will die

Feel my flames feel my nails feel my wrath
For all those daggers you stabbed into others backs
It’s near and it’s soon…you await your final doom
Your soul will never be the same…
When it feels the fire from my reign


1992 Jace

my last one for the day I hope you enjoy

-Aza

Eyes


Why can I not close my eyes?
What is it that I don't realize?
Can't I ever be alive?
Maybe it’s just another sigh

I can't close my eyes
Sifting through the sighs
Why does the sky look blue today?
When will I ever give?
Allowing you to live
Or is it just another gray?

Why do you look at me so?
Is it just time for me to go?
I know I’m not that cold
But your looking at me like I’m gold

I can't close my eyes
Sifting through the sighs
Why does the sky look blue today?
When will I ever give?
Allowing you to live
Or is it just another gray?

Will you want me to be the one?
Ask and it can be done
I know that look in your eyes
It’s of deep down surprise

I can't close my eyes
Sifting through the sighs
Why does the sky look blue today?
When will I ever give?
Allowing you to live
Or is it just another gray?


1999 Jace/ silverpillz

some people have been wondering about the silverpillz on the bottom. Well it is the name of a band I had planned to start. I never had the time to start it let alone devote much time to it. It was long ago, and most of the people who woould of been members I have no clue where they are.So here was the bands title song

-Aza

Silverpillz

This little pill so small
Gives everyone the power to destroy all
They drop like flies when it screams
Makes others shudders in their dreams

Lock and load...a mouth full of lead
The way its going everyone is going to be dead
People killing for nothing at all
Is it because your so small?

They drop another and another one dies
This world of pain and twisted lies
People givening them a silver pill then they're dead
Everyone in the world bleeds one thing..red

Lock and load...a mouth full of lead
The way its going everyone is going to be dead
People killing for nothing at all
Is it because your so small?


1997 Silverpillz/ jace

Another of one of my ..little guy against the tough guy.

enjoy

-Aza

Voided

Can you see that it’s done now?
Killed by the merciless life ahead
You wonder how?
Spiral swirling down is left for the dead

Darkness…Closing in
Suffering all within
Feel it…Creeping on your skin
Its been bought and sold. No returns

Is it painful letting your life slip so fast?
Running through it in a hurry wanting all the cash
Though you’ll never get to see how you’ve done
You lost and I have won.

Darkness…Closing in
Suffering all within
Feel it…Creeping on your skin
Its been bought and sold. No returns

You were a seller…self-made guy
It won’t take long for your ass to fry
Killing all them kids…beating all those girls
Better understand this dark spiral whirl

Slipping…Into the dark
Dropping …letting go of the spark
Bought and sold…No returns


1997 Silverpillz / Jace

Last one for today.....one of my favorites


-Aza

None but I

Running down the street I see all that you do
Dripping down the wall the crimes that are not true
I’ve fallen down on my knees still afraid of you
Wished I still knew what I went through

No one can you see
Nowhere can you hide
Never have I’ve been
This is the start of my sin

Crawling along the road of misgiving attempts
I look up searching for help from the sky
Who knew you’d be looking for me Hell bent
As I can do is wonder why

No one can you see
Nowhere can you hide
Starting of my lies
The drifting of my time

As I look apon the earth I still search for you
Never finding what I’ve wanted me to do
Yet I know its not the same that the gods know me true
But if I was a bird I never would of flew
Master of my soul you say I must be nigh
I tell you that there won’t be any more of time
To find out where I’ve been what’s left for me to do?
All that’s left is for me to start to rule

No one can you see
Nowhere can you hide
The mysteries of darkness let me be
The ending of all time


1998 Silverpillz / Jace

first one of the day



-Aza



Departing

When I got up and went away
There was nothing left to say
I packed my bags all that I found
And since I left I hear no sound

I'm missing something that I cannot replace
But I’m hoping.....
Every time I close my eyes I see your face.

Now dearly departed I gather here today
About how I felt and how I feel this way
Dearest of mine you left me all alone
Is there no way to stop you and come home?

Now when I think of that day
Of when you decided to go away
Tears run down my face as I cry
And I always wonder....I wonder why

Now dearly departed I gather here today
About how I felt and how I feel this way
Dearest of mine you left me all alone
Is there no way to stop you and come home?


1998 Silverpillz / Jace

Killing Hate

What is that you see?
The love that will never be
Deep in your eyes you see
The hate that’s killing me

Will this hate keep killing me?
Will this hate kill what you wanted to be?
Will this hate never let us be?
Kill the hate so we can see

Sorrow in your eyes
Am I supposed to cry?
This hate drowning my life
Can I ever do anything right?

Will this hate keep killing me?
Will this hate kill what you wanted to be?
Will this hate never let us be?
Kill the hate so we can see

Kill this hate...Kill this hate
Deep inside of me
Kill this hate...Kill this hate
That will never let us be


Why can't you let me and this hate be?
Don't you even see?
That this hate is me!!
So let me be!!!


1998 Silverpillz / Jace

Yeah so this isn't really a dark poem. It does have an undertone to it though. I wrote this in honor of all the people that have died at the hands or criminals and rogues, that care not for anyone except themselves

Structure

Time will never be on your side
Just looking for ways to bide
Searching for that missing key
To that place, you’ve wanted to be

There is nothing correct
There are only flaws
We need to connect
And rewrite the laws

This place seems jaded, produced by fear
A spot of hate here, a drop of violence there
How can we repair the damage that’s done
In the end, it is going to take everyone.

There is nothing correct
There are only flaws
We need to connect
And rewrite the laws

Maybe one day we will decide
To stop the hate, the violence, the crime
And save ourselves from the diabolic plans
Forged with our own hands


2005 Jace

here is my last poem for the day. sorry i missed one but i have plenty more for awhile

Moonlife

Hey there can't you see
The moon is out for you and me
Just a little bit of play
Dance by the moon .See what they say

Bring me up ..Up to you
Let the moon look on us too
Can we stay and live?
There is so much that I can give

Green trees .....Dark floor
It that you knocking on my door?
Moon time again let us go
Running in the winds of foretold

Bring me up ..Up to you
Let the moon look on us too
Can we stay and live?
There is so much that I can give

We can stay tonight again
Worry not they think I'm away
Can I touch this shallow grave
Let me lay down I’ll be dead today

Bring me up ..Up to you
Let the moon look on us too
Can we stay and live?
There is so much that I can give


1998 silverpillz / Jace

Yeah some of my style went weird. Here is one from 98 era.


Times of Old

Well I see her walking down the street
Been so long since we last meet
Shall we sit and talk like friends of old
Let’s get out of the freezing cold

Just like the times of old
Stories to tell....jokes to be told
Never will we be apart
Friends for life can you hear my heart?

How have you been? Are you well?
Life’s not good to you I can tell
Trust in me to make it go away
Summer time sun lit rays

Just like the times of old
Stories to tell....jokes to be told
Never will we be apart
Friends for life can you hear my heart?

Well bye for now see you again
I walk away through the rain
Though I stop and turn to look again
You’re already beside me in the rain

Shall we be like the times of old?
Glorious and fleeting rather bold
Never will we be apart
Friends for life can you hear our heart?



Silverpillz 1998 ©

another of my weird mood poems


-Aza

Found

I seen your picture and lost my soul
Why is it that I feel I’ve reached gold?
Never can I let this go...keep it whole

Now I’m lost but you’ve been found
Will you let it be sound?
Make the world for you and me
This is what was meant to be

Now that I’ve found you
What shall I do?
Let my scars heal
And start to feel
The very same thing that turned me down
But there is the chance of you being around.

Now I’m lost but you’ve been found
Will you let it be sound?
Make the world for you and me
This is what was meant to be

1998 Silverpillz/ jace