posted on Nov, 23 2012 @ 05:18 AM
Oddly enough - a nightmare made me smile today.
I awoke having dreamed about my ex. "The" ex. The one who broke my heart in ways I cannot even begin to comprehend. I spent years having these
nightmares on a night basis. Over time, they started to go away. But last night I had one and it caused me to wake in a deep, deep depression and
feeling a profound sense of loneliness and loss.
But, as I went on with my morning, that pain faded and I found myself thinking about little, happy memories from that phase of my life. The little
things she did for me that nobody else would get... Like always making sure to say "G'nite baby, I love you" just before bed - even when we were in
full on war level fights. Or always texting me midday to ask if I was having a good day at work or not. And other things that.... well those are NOT
Before long, I realized that I was smiling as I remembered these things. It's so easy to forget the good when things end badly.
There's probably a profound life lesson somewhere in all that. But I've never been good at recognizing those when they occur.