posted on May, 29 2017 @ 02:19 PM
a reply to: Night Star
Gordi, that's something I struggle with. A LOT. Living my life. It sounds so ridiculous to say, to be. Being true to myself, pursuing happiness and
joy not just for myself but for others... Most of the times it's completely beyond me. Like a lot of times I will feel strange in my own skin, lost in
my own head. So Grace's thread touched me a lot in ways I wasn't able to say until just now when you spoke. I just end up feeling so ineffectual and
akward, like I don't deserve to be happy because I always mess things up for myself(really it's the opposite).
But then, I write. I set pen to the page or get my fingers flying across the page as ND my soul cries because it is finally released... I am able to
shine, able to step outside of myself, able to enjoy myself and lift up others able to feel connected and inspired... But not even that lasts forever
and before I came here to the shed I was starting to despair even of writing. But you guys have given me so much hope, all of you, and encouragement.
Because I see you guys often times struggling with things far more pressing and urgent and real than anything I am going through and you guys still
find time to smile, to laugh, and to get others to smile and laugh.
So, thank you, all of you.