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originally posted by: S777S
You seem like a cool guy. 😎
Keep your head up, don’t quit.
We need more people who love what they do.
It’ll pay off someday.
It has to...
I’m sorry for your suffering.
Will check out your work.
You are definitely talented, keep it up...
You are a girl aren't you? Just wondering...
I poked around a little on your amazon links and your YT site. I have a couple comments/suggestions which might help you.
First off though, it is pretty clear you are very talented, probably more so than you realize. If that Manga is really hand-drawn by you (and not CGI), you are a gifted artist. You also seem well spoken. So, here are some general and specific things which might help you...
1. PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) - I get the distinct impression you set your sites lower than maybe you should. It's almost as if you are accepting of your situation (and I don't mean this in a mean way). You can be pretty proud of your talent. Maybe show that pride a little more.
2. Manga is a tough business to get recognized in. Western culture doesn't really "get it", and there's a tidal wave of it in Asia. Have you ever considered branching your talent out into other areas like say commercial business related art (i.e. advertising or illustration)? This might open up more lucrative opportunities to get recognized. Obviously, you can still do the Manga that you love, but just have other skill sets to pay the bills.
You seem like a very visual person (Manga artists usually are). I say this because it appears you enjoy telling the story more with pictures than with words. This is a very attractive trait/skill in commercial illustration (particularly advertising). You know the old saying, 'A picture tells a thousand words'. Well, it's true! Advertisers depend on a concept known as "dwell time". They know people have precious little of it, so the trick is to try to communicate as much of the message as fast as possible before someones 'dwell time' (attention) turns to something else.
3. I have a specific comment/suggestion about your YT channel. I would recommend removing a lot of the extraneous game related stuff and focus your channel on two things...your work and your journey. Both of these things are in there, but they're overwhelmed by all the other things which detract from your goals. Maybe create a second channel somewhere for your gaming stuff if you have to, but I'd recommend getting it off your main channel because it distracts viewers from your main focus (stated in your OP).
4. As I noted, you seem to speak well (watch the language though), and your thoughts seem to be linear which is good. I say this in a 'stream of consciousness' sort of way. Maybe try some exercises to turn those visual mental pictures into words. Clearly you have something to say, and a story to tell...so tell it. It might turn out better than you think. Even the elements of your personal journey along the way would be of interest to viewers. You have some of that, but just a little.
Hopefully these help!
ETA - I see you've already achieved 'writer' status here on ATS, which is great. Maybe write some more stories for the various competitions in the 'Short Stories' forum. It's a free way to get some really great feedback.
You resonate as a survivor to me. I would guess your childhood was bumpy, but with pockets of pure joy and wonder.
originally posted by: XXXN3O
a reply to: argentus
Been wanting to write to you (OP) since I first flagged this post but could not find the words.
This reply above... just honestly... listen to this and take heed!!!
Wisdom.... you are not alone and neither is the poster
PS: I want to be honest here, I think you have been considering suicide from looking at your works, and what you have written in this thread, I hope I am wrong. Trust me, its not worth it. The night is always darkest before dawn. Ive lived it too, I do entertainment rather than books but I can relate, it is so hard and each level you reach adds to the burden but keep going!
Once you get there, you will realise your masterpiece, your own story