reply to post by socrates744
My man, I am going to assume that the actual experience you've detailed here is 100% accurate. Of course, it could be totally false, bogus, a prank,
a hallucination, a drug reaction, or [fill in the blank]. But for argument's sake, let's say it happened exactly as you've described.
You say you're "looking for answers". If I had gone through a similar experience, I would be too. But I have bad news for you...
You probably aren't ever going to get any answers on this one.
I have had unexplainable experiences in my life -- four to be exact, all similar and seemingly related, all disturbing as hell. And while these
experiences (I have written about 2 of the 4 here on ATS) were not nearly as intense as the one you've described, they were nonetheless, tangible and
I am not religious (agnostic) and am a born skeptic. It has been very hard for me to come to terms with the fact that I have had this infrequent
(thankfully) intrusion of a rather unpleasant force or entity or whatever the damn thing is pop in and out of my life every decade or so. I have
denied it, ignored it, challenged it, researched it for literally thousands of hours, had every relevant psychological and medical test done over the
years, don't take drugs, am healthy as a horse, am a very light drinker, don't smoke, bite my nails, and so on.
Still, I have no answers. Not one. The only things I know for sure about any of what I've experienced is that I don't know what it is, why it's
happening, or what it's about.
And this, I'm sorry to tell you, is pretty much the norm for people like us who have experiences like these. I have talked to dozens of folks over
the years who have endured similar episodes or events, "experts" in the field, clergy, even an exorcist once; still, no answers.
I can't even make an educated guess as to what my "thing" is, and wouldn't even try in your case. Not a clue...
This used to bother me greatly. Like you, I was almost desperate for some, even ANY answer. But these days, I know where I stand, and that's why
I'm telling you this. As hard as it is to simply move on and hope it never happens again, you'll be better off doing so than letting it turn into
an obsession that can never be sated.
Best of luck to you and sincere thanks for your service.