reply to post by starheart
Hey Starheart,It IS a really saddish,nostalgic feeling-when i woke from those,i would feel a tug at my heart,like i left a part of myself behind,you
know? Like i belong there too.I remember once i was looking for my youngest daughter in a small complex made up of a few restaurants and eateries,and
i entered a big diner-type place,and there were 3 or 4 men sitting at a table near the entrance.They saw me and smiled at me in a friendly way,as in
"Oh hey there" but i just waved,because i was in a bit of a rush-i so well remember,i thought:"Pity i can't stop and chat" I felt genuine
liking,i Knew that i knew these guys,not as best friends,you know,but as pleasant people to talk with and to know.That regret was still with me when i
woke,like i really had missed an opportunity to catch up with well-liked acquaintances.
Once i was in a nightclub,in the gothic-looking city i think,a club of the "industrial metal" type music,and when i woke from that,i felt
loss,longing.I have another memory of walking past the front of this club in daytime,when it was closed,before that.
About the seaside town with the 2 distinctly different street sides,i never would want to cross over to the stark,austere side,with the
grey+charcoal/black buildings and smoked-glass shopfronts-in fact,i only glanced at it once,in only one dream.It's just depressing,and a bit creepy
in a way.
I've been having very poor dream recall for quite a while now,more than a year actually.I was in a shop in the provincial capital today,and asked the
owner about the crystal Moldavite,which is supposed to be very good for aiding dream recall,and she asked me if am a creative type,that stopped
creating-i was quite amazed-Firstly i had a snippet of dream recall on one occasion in the past 2 weeks,where in the dream i was making cat-shaped
ornaments again-and then today she suggested that i start creating again-that often,being creative,helps.That was a confirmation to me,that i should
start doing so,and see if it helps.i used to make cat-ornaments,pewterwork,jewellery,made clay beads and handpainted them,i used to do paintings,i
made ethnic statuettes of women,lots of stuff.I am a person that can literally take a stone,and make something interesting or beautiful or charming
out of it,not being braggy,thats just how i am-i look at a thing,a simple thing like a stick,and into my mind flood possibilities of what it can
But around 1+half years ago,i lost interest-there were a lot of issues of a metaphysical nature that took precedence,i felt a need to read up
online(not fiction,i cannot read "stories" anymore-zero interest) and learn more about esoteric/metaphysical subject matter,and above all,to spend
an enormous amount of time meditating,being in nature,just being open to what comes,that type of thing.It went from HAVING to create something every
single day to no interest whatso ever.So i may slowly start doing arts+crafts,or painting again-the dream of me making cats again,did leave me with at
least a smidgin of feeling to start sometime,a tiny wee bit of missing making beautiful or funky things.I think i may start with clay bead