I can definitely feel you.
It does not mean that you would ignore a child trapped in ice, or a man hanging off a balcony ledge. It just means that you are probably an animal
I am the same way, in a lot of ways. Outside of my immediate human family (and believe me, I would do anything for them!), I really just get along
better with animals. Specifically, cats.
I have met animals that come from abusive backgrounds..animals that have gone through hideous abuse, and they are still somehow forgiving and
accepting, sometimes even more so then animals with normal backgrounds. It is almost as though they understand completely what happened, and are
forever grateful that someone stepped in to save their life.
My daughter just lost her 12-year-old kitty to illness early Monday morning. It was an awful thing for our family, and I still feel stunned by it.
This kitty was a rescue..she and her siblings had been boxed with their mother and tossed into a dumpster. By a miracle, a person tossing trash heard
the faint meowing inside and pulled them out. We adopted our "Kida" from a group that rescued abused and abandoned animals. Through her 12 years,
she was forever grateful, and very integrated into our family. I will forever remember the complete look of love and adoration she would show my
daughter throughout the years..just complete innocent and selfless love.
People that do not and have not had animals will never understand this feeling. I do not view animals as "just animals"..I view them as non-human
people. They have emotions: happiness, sadness, confusion, excitement, depression, wonderment, and above all, LOVE. Many humans will try to tell you
"They snuggle with you because it's warm" or "they follow you because they only want food"..how sad to assume that animals are driven only by
survival instincts and nothing else. Any loving pet owner will tell you that is complete and utter BS.
In her last days, Kida followed my daughter around as best she could. She wanted nothing more than to be by her side. In her last effort to be with
her as she passed on, she tried to jump up on to my daughter's bed to pass away..the loving place she had spent all her years napping happily,
snuggled up to her favorite human in the world. Sadly, she was found dead, minutes later, still clutching the comforter. I am glad that I did not
witness her final seconds, but on the other hand, I will go to my grave regretting I was not right beside her when she passed.
It chokes me up to write this now.
I hope she is at peace wherever her spirit and soul is now, and that she lets us know she is okay. I miss her terribly. Just as all of the other
animals that have come and gone through my life my 35 years on this earth. All of the time I have spent with them was too short a time, and I hope
that when I go into the next world, they are waiting for me.