reply to post by MrUncreated
I really feel for you, I am terribly sorry for you having to grow through what you have in your lifetime. Please don't give up on yourself. Thing is
about enlightenment is that it can be accomplish in any way you wish. Meditation, binaural beats, drugs ....ect ect are all just tools to accomplish
the same thing. You don't really need to meditate to find connection with the divine source, it's a method, a tool that almost everyone can learn to
do and fyi you don't need to breathe through the nose to meditate you can do it entirely through the mouth or without any breathing exercises at all,
breathing is a focus / resting point, I hardly use any breathing exercising when I meditate, the trick to it is slowing yourself down, slowing your
mind down, removing layers and layers of ego identity and emotions. Try to be real with yourself.
Learn to be present, in the "now moment", there's so many guides out there on how to be present and meditation is just one of them, when you become
present, fully aware of yourself, your emotions, your surroundings are the moments of your highest frequency, when you're in that state then your in
state that's in enternal stillness. It's an amazing moment to be in, it's a moment when thoughts, imagery, creativity, love are just free flowing
into my brain, I can ask myself questions and moments later answers start to creep into my head, the thing is answers only form from whatever
information is your head and your "spirit" or higher self arranges the information that you are familiar with that creates the answer for you thus
gives this inner knowingness. I honestly can achieve this state pretty much anywhere if I really allow myself. Many good books, music, passages,
quotes help awaken me to that moment, you just gotta experiment with yourself to find truly find who you are.
But you have to stop the moments of negativity, it's only going to prolong your pain as hard as it is, having negative emotions is a choice when it
comes down to it, you'll learn that really there's no point in having negative emotions, they don't allow you to become productive, you become a
person that know one wants to be around and it creates a snowball effect of other negative emotions, try to learn to catch yourself when you're in or
about to be in those moments and really feel into them and then change them with practice, by doing so you're allowing positive energy to break
There's much , much to learn here. You can start by reading a couple books, I recommend Oneness and another book called Frequency. They will help you
to bring you back to your true state. But don't box yourself into the limitations that you setup for yourself, all these contraints that you think
you have to follow in order to gain "enlightenment" , believe me it comes in any form you may wish for it come, you just got to go and get it.