You must feel blessed to have four children. I have two, one lives a few streets over and the other lives with Jesus. We lost her a couple years back and if Jesus hadn't have revealed himself to me before that took place, I would probably be insane by now or worse. It's the one time the answer to my prayer was no. I wanted him to give her back to me whole, the way she was before she left the house that day. I begged and pleaded him to let her live. The answer was no though. I couldn't have her back but then he showed me where she was and I knew my prayer to let her live was answered. Oh she lives.... because he lives. I'm more sure of that than I am of anything here on earth.
I was listening to a womans testimony the other night and she had an experience sort of like what you woul like to have - a fully awake face to face
encounter. He answered two questions, that countless people ask or wonder about on a daily basis and because how he answered the questions, I just
know in my own soul this lady really saw him. She had a severe crisis in her faith and the first thing he said to her was, "You don't believe my
words - the bible.' You don't trust the translation. You're afraid something was lost in translation. It's my responsibility as God to protect my
word for you but it's your responsibilty to go 100% with the light you have."
The other thing that troubled this woman was she wondered if there was a God why were crippled babies being born into the world or why are so many
dying in starvation and he said, " I Am The LORD! I shall NEVER answer to you, but you shall surely answer to me."
I know you know what to do to get him to reveal himself to you. Being humble goes along way with him. Seek him with all your heart, soul, strength
and mind. Adults can be so.... stuck in their ways, so heed his words and become child-like. You have to be open and expect the unexpected.
99% will bring you nothing.