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Originally posted by ottobot
Originally posted by Lichter daraus
Wish i knew where home was. i feel comfortable in certain places but never feel at home.
I know what you mean, what is it that you feel might be missing?
I know I don't feel "at home" because I have never fit in with other people. It's always an uneasy fit... like I can get along, and even be friends for awhile, but they end up turning on me as soon as something goes wrong. I have very few friends specifically for this reason.
My last few "good friends" either began to "hate" me for voicing my opinion that didn't synch with their own, or I just stopped talking to because I had many issues and basically withdrew from the world at large... and nobody followed or even bothered to try to bring me back from that brink.
I realize this mindset is a product of my youth, but it's extremely hard for me to get close to people because I, literally, do not know how to get close to people. :-/
People tell me their problems, but I cannot trust them to listen to mine or care about me in any way other than a superficial one. It is painful.
I don't like living like that, so I am trying to change it... it's pretty much one step at a time, and maybe I will someday know how to live and be at ease.
Originally posted by Mister_Bit
Home for me is where my bed is, where I can close the doors, turn the phone off and shut out the world and be myself, wrapped up warm and safe in my duvet with no outside interuptions.
Originally posted by WhiteHat
Even if I ask myself sometimes if I could choose, where in the world I would want to be, the answer is hard to find. Maybe somewhere in the mountains, away from other people, maybe traveling around the world, not a specific place. No place to think about it like home.
People who made me feel at home, well, same story, I left behind, some I willingly drifted away from them. Again, I wish I knew why.
Originally posted by Itisnowagain
reply to post by ottobot
The pain is the sense of separation, aloneness, abandonment, not feeling complete, unworthy, alien, almost everyone feels this, it is the human condition.
The cure is to see that you are complete, not a seeing but a knowing, a realization. You do not have to do anything to be complete because you already are, it just has to be realized. When you realize, you are home.
Originally posted by greyer
reply to post by ottobot
Home is love
Originally posted by Lichter daraus
Pretty much explains me to a T. Been trying to change it for a long time. I'll never stop tryin thats all i can really do.
Peace
Originally posted by LifeIsEnergy
How can I be separate from all that I am? So the answer is, everything and nothing.
Originally posted by ottobot
Originally posted by LifeIsEnergy
How can I be separate from all that I am? So the answer is, everything and nothing.
But, ultimately, home is defined by my (your) own mind.