posted on Dec, 3 2011 @ 03:36 AM
I am going to post now in the attempt to rectify what some of you have thought is hate speech or an attempt to generalize or propagate some sort of
agenda against the gay community. Perhaps my choice of words in some posts or my perceived disposition to the gay community were misinterpreted or
perhaps my alcohol consumption betrayed me...... Who knows, either way, I want to be clear so I will offer a snippet of my own life for review and
ridicule because since we are talking about feelings as it pertains to the emotions of many members I would be cheating you of the truth if you didn't
know my own background.
I grew up with a mother that had 3 kids from 3 different fathers, we constantly moved around, had no idea of who our fathers were and were subjected
to abusive men who treated our mother badly most of the time because of the simple fact she was a drifter and often had no choice.
My mothers first priority was always to her boyfriend, never to her children and growing up in that fashion has had a very specific effect on me
personally. I met my father for the first time when I was 14, he sold drugs and soon after had me doing the same, he was abusive and he and his wife
(my step mother) were both on drugs 6 days out of the week. I left that house with nothing but the clothes I had on when I turned 17 and I have never
looked back. I fight the feeling to ever feel sorry for myself because I believe the person I am today would have only been possible under those
That said, my child hood, all the way was really, really F'd up. I don't experience emotions like normal people do and I am probably more like a
Vulcan than a normal human being. I don't have any mental issues at all, it is more like I live life through black and white, common sense and my
brain in general. I have never had the luxury of making discussions or speech through my heart because I completely honestly don't feel much. This is
probably why I have ex wives instead of a wife.
I want to say that while I stand by my speech, I honestly would like to say I am sorry to anyone that I have offended in this thread and tell you that
my position is not to judge, make light of or stereotype anyone else in this world. We are all human, we all have the same feelings and we all bleed
the same blood. Regardless of any differences, I would at the end of the day, without question, risk my own life to save yours if the opportunity ever
presented itself, at that moment, it would not matter if you were black, red, gay or shaped like a pear. I just would.
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Helious because: (no reason given)